journey, figured it would be quick, and then you'd be right back home? That you'd take a quick zip over the uncharted territory, but then you could slip right back into "life as you knew it?" Only somewhere along the way, the boat broke down, and everything you thought you planned for, no longer mattered? Three years ago this month, Adrain and I embarked on a journey. We had just read "Revolution in World Missions," by K.P. Yohannan. It suddenly seemed like we'd found our passion/mission in life/purpose, and the ball started rolling. Adrain knows he's being called to do something, but as of yet, he has only a vague inclination as to what that "something" is. I can't go into his side of the story, but I can tell you mine.
A lot of changes have occurred in the past couple of months for me. They began as I read the book, "So Long Insecurity" by Beth Moore. It truly changed my thinking, and along with it, my life. As I put those things into practice, I got my hands on another book, "Crazy Love," by Francis Chan. After praying about it, Adrain and I decided to intentionally downsize not only our home, (gasp!) but our lifestyle, as we became convicted about what we could be doing in this life for others. (And yes, that does mean a probable move into a smaller, more affordable home. We are actively looking right now.) In other words, we don't want to just be Christians who talk the talk. We plan to walk it too, baby! I found this quote in Crazy Love that spoke to me, as it hit Adrain and I right where we were at. "The gap is so extreme in our world that we have to take lightly passages such as Luke 12:33: "Sell your possessions and give to the poor." How else can I walk out of a mud shack and back into my two-thousand-square-foot house without doing anything? The concept of downsizing so that others might upgrade is biblical, beautiful... and nearly unheard of. We either close the gap or don't take the words of the Bible literally." That was just the beginning. I wish I could share more, but I can't just yet. Adrain and I are committed to living with less. A lot less. We feel like we are being called to live way under our income, in order to be available for the possible coming changes in our life.
We feel called to trust God fully as we live on less, and use the rest to serve Him better. Crazy Love has helped me uncover truths that have impacted my faith in such a way, that I don't want go back to the way I was before. God has placed Adrain and I on a journey that appears to have many changes up ahead, and we are so excited. We are shaking off the things that tie us down, and we are holding our hands openly to God and willing to do whatever he wants. He is doing something big in our life. And I will tell you one thing. I have never felt so passionately in love with Jesus. I should be terrified. I like my plans perfectly laid out and well organized. We have no plan. Let me repeat. We. Have. No. Plan. Because we know God has the whole plan all figured out. We are fully trusting Him right now, in ways we have never trusted. Before I go, I want to leave you with a quote from Francis Chan, in Crazy Love that really opened our hearts to all of this. We have no idea where this journey will ultimately take us, but I'm so glad I can finally begin to share what's been in our hearts for a long time with you....and I promise, more will follow as it all unfolds!
Love you all so much, dear friends!
"Lukewarm people do not live by faith; their lives are structured so they never have to. They don't have to trust God if something unexpected happens- they have their savings account. They don't need God to help them- they have their retirement plan in place. They don't genuinely seek out what life God would have them live- they have life figured and mapped out. They don't depend on God on a daily basis- their refrigerators are full and, for the most part, they are in good health. The truth is, their lives wouldn't look much different if they suddenly stopped believing in God."
(I have a feeling this isn't a three hour tour... )