(stock photo)My husband approached me first thing, the morning after my "big joy discovery," and brought up the idea that perhaps we were also supposed to be surrendered totally. He said, "What if... (metaphorically speaking) we're sitting here, holding out for an afternoon in the backyard, but God wants to take us to the Zoo?" I guess you can be joyful, but still cling to your own plan. I had to mull that over a bit. Cause ya know what? I happen to like the backyard.
(stock photo)Shortly after that, my devotional spoke about being like clay. Moldable clay. It went further to point out, that clay doesn't have any preconceived notions about what it's being shaped into. It just allows the shaping to take place.
Then I cried a few buckets of tears and told God that I was willing to surrender, but I couldn't surrender my plan and let go, unless He helped, because I'm entirely incapable of that sort of thing, and could He please speak to me right that second? Before I had even finished speaking those words, the phone rang. It was a person coming to view our house for the second time.
(stock photo)And then, my dishwasher broke. And one of my children allowed a very wet and muddy dog to come running through the house, where she circled the coffee table, ran into my bedroom, and back out and around again, leaving multiple muddy footprints. Within the hour. Mama wasn't happy. Or joyful. Or surrendered. (Well, I mean, I was surrendering- to the idea that putting my dog on Craig's list was finally a doable idea. Just kidding...)
(stock photo)I carved out a few minutes of quiet to finish my Esther study, where I encountered Beth Moore's words. "He promises that in all things God works for our good. In other words, every time He shifts us here, or moves us there on this earthbound chessboard, He's not just fulfilling His own pleasure regardless of it's impact on you. He's also working every detail-even the dreadful ones- to your and my good."
And that's when I surrendered. Joyfully, I might add.
There is still no offer on our home. But I'm making a conscious choice to:
Step out of my comfort zone in faith.
(stock photo)How about you? Is there something in your life tying you up in ribbons of fear? Joy and Surrender are great tools for snipping away at those ribbons.
Oh. And, please send a dishwasher repairman. Thanks.
Read the next phase, where I focus on faith in this journey, here.