Thursday, July 29, 2010

Promises

I don't typically read the Daily Bread, but for some reason, I happened to grab one at the start of Summer and I read way ahead.  Cause that's how I roll.  (I also read the last page of every book.) Apparently, I'd ripped out a page I liked, and stuck it in the front of my bible.  Then I promptly forgot all about it.

Last weekend was excruciating for me on nearly every level.  I also felt like I'd been given a specific encouragement in the form of a piece- no, a chunk, of hope, only to have God snatch it right out of my hands days later and stomp all over it. (Which I'm sure He didn't actually do.  I'm just saying what it felt like.) I was crushed, absolutely broken-hearted, and then to be perfectly honest, I got good and mad at Him. I think, (and I cringe right about here, but I'm keeping it real) I even told Adrain that I was "really pissed off at God."
 Anyhow, as we were heading home from church that night, I sat grinding my teeth in irritation.  Then, I flipped the cover of my bible open, looking for a scrap of paper for my grocery list, cause I'd had enough.  The torn-out page (from the upcoming August 21st daily bread) was staring right at me.  I quickly skimmed through it, only to stop and re-read the whole thing very slowly, as it whispered directly into my situation. Here's a portion of it:

"Have you ever felt that God doesn't keep His promises?... After God promised Abraham, "I will make you a great nation" 25 years elapsed before the birth of his son Isaac.... Through the ups and downs, God kept reminding Abraham of His promise to give him a child, while urging him to walk faithfully with Him and believe. When we claim one of God's promises in the Bible, whether it is for peace of mind, courage or provision of our needs, we place ourselves in His hands and on His schedule.  As we wait, it may at times seem as if the Lord has forgotten us. But trust embraces the reality that when we stand on a promise of God, He remains faithful.  The assurance is in our hearts, and the timing is in His hands."
  
I wait and it feels like my prayers are going no higher than the ceiling.  I force myself to practice faith that endures.  When my resolve crumbles into tiny pieces of despair, I'll remember that what I feel isn't always what I know.  So far, it hasn't been easy and I still don't know the outcomes of my situations- or if there even are any "outcomes" at this point.  But I'm going to hold on to His faithfulness- even when it  feels like He's not, and the assumed absence just about breaks my heart.

Are you waiting on something from God and feel like he might have forgotten about you?  I know He has not, nor will He ever forget about you! 

Hold on, and be encouraged.  You aren't alone!

Wanna read more?  The journey continues, here.

21 comments:

  1. You always keep it real Sasha, and I love you for it.

    I have faith that everything will work out in the end.

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  2. Thank you for the post, this is just what I needed to hear this morning. I know that whatever situation you are in right now seems horrible, but think about the many people you have touched with this post... you wouldn't have had the post to make if not for a bad situation... not saying that you are going through all of this for US, just that I am glad you used it to bless us... because it definitely blessed me. Hugs and I will keep you in my prayers!

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  3. I was just reading The Sacred Echoes (by Margaret Feinberg) on the plane and her chapter on seasons of longing reminds me of a few things you have written (like this post and the beautiful one about the workings of clocks.)

    I've been gone, but I am still tracking with you! And, yes, curriculum found. Sorry I never answered that one. Your link was very helpful! :)

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  4. If we sit down and be honest with ourselves and count the times He has proven Himself faithful to us,it should cause us never to doubt Him again. But we are but human and we live in the here and now. Just remember He knows your waiting is for but a short season in the light of eternity. He's got it all under control. Love your post, so honest and so true.

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  5. When I feel out there I remember Jer. 29:11. He has a plan for my life and yours and it WILL come to pass...no matter if we get mad, impatient, have temper tantrums or have perfect peace etc... His plan is going on and it will all work out. He said He would prosper you and give you a future. That sounds pretty good:) Hang in there sweetie. But keep venting...it's good to get it out every now and then! I love you.

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  6. Thanks Sasha, what a great reminder for us all!

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  7. what a wonderful post! THANK YOU for the blessing!

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  8. Not only did Abraham have to wait 25 years for Issac, he also had to sacrifice Issac before God intervened.
    The Israelites took 40 years to get to the Promised Land-When the trip really (with livestock) should have only taken them 11 days!

    That's how God rolls.

    Who are we to question his tactics? We only see moments in life-He sees our whole life... Keep thanking him through the good and the bad-It will all work out, it always does for them that believe and love him.

    I woke up feeling the need to pray for different people last night and the Holy Spirit brought you to my mind... This proves God is looking out for you Sasha! :) He loves you!

    Blessings to you in Jesus name.

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  9. Wow Sasha, what a great post! That little page in your bible must have been God answering your prayer through YOU! Kind of funny, thinking about answering your own prayer!

    I'm glad you're so honest. When we found out we couldn't have kids I went through a severe angry stage (and still cycle back through it sometimes). I actually said that exact same phrase to my husband...fortunately he's a rock and talked me out of it!

    Love, love this post! God is always there, and he DOES answer prayers...usually better than what we ever imagined!

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  10. This is why I come here. (Well, among other reasons...) But today - yes, this is it. xo

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  11. Thanks for this post, I am new to your blog but this was a real blessing to me!

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  12. I think I should stop quoting Beth Moore--it's probably starting to annoy everyone, but... "God can't turn a table in your life if no table has been set against you".

    I love your honesty. Thanks for keeping it real! You inspire me and make me feel like I'm not alone in my struggles too!

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  13. What a great post. I often say that to my kids that we want God to give us an aerial view, you know, like the big picture. But He just gives us a ground view, and we learn to trust Him with "His" aerial view :-)
    Blessings,
    Marcia

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  14. Thanks for keeping it real and for sharing that today! I so needed that reminder!

    You are such a HUGE blessing to me and so many others!!!

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  15. steadfast faith, not always easy, but necessary. chin up, hands folded in prayer.

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  16. I'm reading So Long Insecurity and loving it, thanks to your advice to read it!


    By the way, unless you are wishing me shortness of breath and anxiety from here to the moon, DO NOT and I repeat DO NOT send me formula! haha. Ridiculous!

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  17. Thanks Sasha, I really needed this today. Everyday I get upset, why not now etc... I'm praying for the patience and trying to enjoy my time with Him rather than being upset with Him. Thanks for the reminder :)

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  18. What a GREAT post... and what a lovely reminder. I can't even say how many times I've had something in my daily devotional or just something my eyes landed on in my Bible that applied directly to something I was struggling with. And it's refreshing to hear someone admit that they were "pissed off at God", because I think a lot of us feel that way, but refuse to admit it, while we hide behind our cloak of holyness and being a "good" christian person. That being said, if we bury it, we can allow it to fester, but saying it outloud helps us (me, anyway) to hear how horrible it sounds, and deal with the issues of my heart. :-)

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  19. girl, i so understand your frustration! there were soooo many days when i would ask God "when will this begin to lift?", and it felt like it took forever. but looking back, cause now i can do that, i can see that He was there all along. sitting next to me, holding my hand while together we waited for the clouds to lift.

    hang in there sasha! you're right, he is with you and i'm going to pray that he will bring comfort to you while you guys (you and God) wait.

    xoxo- heather

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  20. I love this. Think of how many of us just needed to hear this today!

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  21. Totally get you! Love how you found that page... I believe He shows us that He hears us... it's just not time to answer us... but man what we learn while we wait!! Great post!

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