Friday, January 28, 2011

The month I used to hate...

I'm about to post some photos that have (mostly) nothing to do with anything.  Kind of like a Seinfeld episode.  I put this one as my photo of the day, not because I just received the cutest umbrella EVER, in the mail (in spite of the fact that my entire family calls me a tourist because apparently natives of the Pacific Northwest don't sport umbrellas) but because (and I can't believe I'm actually admitting this out loud!) I actually looked much thinner in this photo than I actually am in real life, and who can't resist that??  My hoodlum takes a good angled photo.  (giggle)  And for the record I love my clear bubble umbrella and I don't care who knows it!!!  And... total side note here... have any of you noticed that my hair is growing?! Yes!  It is!  I am determined to enjoy each stage of growout.. no regrets!  LMM doesn't do regrets.  No ma'am!
I used to hate January.  And really, "hate" is kind of an understatement.  It was always the month my man left for a loooonggg week on business. (And in case you haven't noticed this yet, I'm a lot attached to my man.  As in... he's my bestest of best buddies in the entire world and I am completely addicted to him.  So when I can't be with him, or call him, or text him, or email him, I hate it.)  It was the month of getting back into daily grind of home school with no fun in sight. And it was the month of nothing to look forward to. (Ava gave me this toy horse, bless her heart.)
I decided that January is going to be my fun kickoff.  I spray painted this horse bright green just for fun.  It's somehow symbolic of this month.  I'm going to have fun!!!  I'm going to hope.  I'm going to dream.  I'm going to be fearless yet again, since I kind of lost some of that last year.  Well, most of the time, anyway.   
This January is shaping up to be a month of beginnings.  A month of resolutions kept.  A month of big things.  A month of hope.  A month of goofy, old fashioned fun.  I actually kept my resolutions.  For an entire month.  I dared myself to step outside of my comfort zone, and jump headfirst into things that have terrified me.  I bared my soul and trusted you all to accept my vulnerability.  I was not disappointed.  I was encouraged. 
I love this photo, because on this particular day, I was gazing at the most glorious sunset of pinks and blues.  Assured in my knowledge that my tiny, seemingly insignificant life is held in the most protective and caring hands.  I know who holds my future and I'm not afraid.  Come what may.  Bring it.  I have loved this January.  For maybe the first time in my entire life.  How has your January been?  Have you kept your resolutions?  Even if you haven't don't scrap the rest of the year.  Jump in... make February your new beginning, and be fearless.  Being fearless puts energy back into your heart.  Who doesn't need that?! 

I sure love you guys!!

17 comments:

AtOneWithHim said...

you are of course, cute as ever.. and seriously your skin is beautiful. maybe it's all that moisture you live in!
my dec and jan were sad for my family but i am looking forward to better things this year and healing for my young daughters heart.

hope you find a lot of rainbows in all that rain!

Mattysarah said...

My Dec and Jan have been very sad, I just lost my only living grandpa(my grandma is still here with us) It was a heart breaking Christmas and New Years for my family and after it was over, my hubby decided to tackle some home improvements so I really had no time to grieve properly. Usually January is the time for the stress of the holidays to be over and me to relax, but that has not been the case. I pray every night that grandpa is heaven watching over us and spending time with his daughter(my mother,lost her to cancer when I was 6). I know hes in a good place and I need to grieve and heal properly. I am looking forward to the green again and the warmth and ready to move forward to end the year on a good note. With so many days ahead i know i have God watching over me everyday and he knows what's best in my journey through life. I thank God for directing me to your blog. And your beautiful Sasha and a amazing woman and wife and mom. Thanks so much for sharing. Hugs to you from Ohio!!!

The Every Day Extraordinary said...

My January has started off with some health issues for myself and my baby's hips are still not what they should be. . .but I have begun tackling the unnecessary stuff in our house and am trying to live with only items we love and that is comforting: ) I've been doing a pretty good job of taking pictures every day and my Project Life is up to date. Relief! I hate not following through on resolutions...character flaw: )

Holly said...

I had a picture of myself where I looked really thin. I have no idea how that happened! Unfortunately, I had not been wearing makeup, my hair was up in a clip, and I was wearing my something awful and the pic was slightly out of focus. I cropped my head off and posted it anyway. Girls are weird.

LeAnna said...

Man, I love those pics that make a gal look thin, they're the best! ;) And I love your green horse!

Just B @ Love Where You Live said...

You are so right, January and February for that matter, have never been my favorite months. We have less sunny days where we live and by January, we're a little Vitamin D deficient! So, we kinda do have to make our own sunshine during yhese grayer days. Today is my birthday, so what better time to decide to have more fun and try to beat the Winter Blahs. Always fun stopping by your blog. Well done! :)

Jessie May said...

Well, I never realised so many people have the January blues thing and for me it hasn't helped being ill. But I am inspired - had a good walk in the cold this morning, going to get back running tomorrow - February WILL be good. Hope everybody else's will be too. Enjoy your weekend :)

Farmgirl Paints said...

Nope still not a fan. Thank God it's almost over. BUT I am tremendously happy it's been good for you. You do look thin in that photo and I was just thinking that about your hair too! Love ya girl. I have a feeling FEB. is going to ROCK!

Tiffany said...

right back at you!!!! you are adorable

hope you are having a great weekend!!!

Lissa said...

I saw that same incredible sunset over here!

okay... so you look so beautiful in that last photo!!!

I'm starting to struggle with January. But I'M TRYING! I promise I am.

I LOVE YOU!

PandaMom said...

Beautiful pic of you in the close-up!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am exactly the same way with my man and can't even breathe when he's gone.....which is rare, thank God. You are quite the inspiration to do things FUN!!! ; )

NaomiG said...

The green horse is adorable. The pics of you are great!! I love that you post them for that reason. I may or may not do the same thing. :-) And, while the umbrella is super cute in the abstract, I'm rather dissappointed in you, my fellow PNW girl. We NEVER ever ever use umbrellas here. No matter how cute they are. (but it is really cute. :-))

I've done awesome so far with my "resolutions". Mostly because I've chosen to look at them as continuous "life improvements" as opposed to resolutions. But, it's put me in a pretty cheery january mood. However, we're heading for a period of time where my husband is going to be traveling for work a lot, and I am dreading it. I like to think I simply "want" him around, which says so much more, i think-its a choice and desire instead of me being needy, but well, when he's gone, it turns out I actually do need him. :-)

deborahspalette said...

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Totally adorable!!!!

Valerie@chateaualamode.typepad.com said...

Just want to tell you that you are adorable. You write from the heart and I love that.

Rachel @ A Cupcake for Moose said...

Good for you! I love your attitude and determination. My January has been full of thinking, praying and getting ready for our baby girl that's due in just a few weeks. February will be a month to remember, for sure! Hope your February is fabulous, too!

Alicia said...

my january has been good...not great, but good. i've got big plans for this year and i'm excited. :) and btw: your teeth are gorgeous! random, but they are!!

Jules said...

I love your attitude about January. Ours has been super cold and snowy. I try to keep a good attitude but I am really struggling this year. Thanks for the great attitude!