Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Why am I panicking? I shouldn't be panicking!!

Okay y'all.  The reality has settled upon me.  I am in a place of living completely by faith.  No other options right now at all.  Every house we try to pursue ends in some sort of dead end to our way of thinking... either bank issues like short sales (which I do not want to jump into) or a house that photographs well but is all chopped up and laid out wrong, or weird location, or too much work, or too much money.  Overwhelming.  
  Right now, I'm going, "Okay so I'm happy my house is sold God, but why did You sell it right when You did... when we didn't have a house picked out? I don't get Your timing!"  Can anyone out there relate?  It's not like we aren't looking, but we can't find anything in our price range that will work for us yet....  I don't get it.  Just keeping it real.  I have had my hands way full with some kid issues this week and I think it's possible that I'm on overload.  All the pieces were chugging along, fitting so neatly into place, and then dead stop.  So now what? 

I don't know.  I can tell you this.  For the first time in my life, I was freaking out, losing sleep, when I suddenly remembered the events of the past week and I let them seep into my bones.  I remembered.  I held them in my mind, and I knew for that tiny, quiet moment, that the God I've been trusting for the past nine months, knows exactly where we are going to end up, and He can be trusted.  He is the same God that moved all those pieces together.  It's a moment by moment choice right now.  I really want a home for my family.  I don't want to rent.  I will if I have no other choice, however, and I will be grateful for it.  I want to be settled.  So many months of feeling up in the air.  I need a break.  I'm breaking.  But I'm being held together by threads of faith that weren't there nine months ago.  For that I'm grateful. And tonight I will try and sleep... and not worry...I will rest because of this verse:

"He will not let your foot slip.  Your protector will not slumber." Psalm 121:3


  1. Praying for you, knowing your feelings exactly! I love how God ha sshown Himself so faithful to you already, giving you the faith to take each new step in confidence.

    He is writing an amazing story for you!

    (We frequently remind ourselves that God's timing is always perfect... He is never late and rarely early! Hugs and prayers!)

  2. has shown - sorry for the typo!

  3. You REALLY can trust Him hun - the bigger the apparent burden, the bigger the testimony gets to be! What a blessing that every day things like selling home and moving can allow us to be stretched and matured in our faith! We are trusting along side you for the PERFECT home, in His prefect time.

  4. Amen!! It is all God's perfect plan but sometimes we don't remember that. Excited to see what path lies ahead for you and your family.

  5. You should read Isaiah's is a truly encouraging passage about God and how He's bigger than all of our issues and how He give strength to the weary. He can do it!

  6. Thanks Kelli, one of my FAVE. chapters... A verse that has always been close to my heart is Isaiah 40:11; "He tends his flock like a shepherd; He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young."

    Such a good reminder... thank you!

  7. When we moved to WA state, hubby and I had a very similar kind of experience... We put our house on the market in what was supposed to be a hot sellers market. That same week, 5 other houses in our neighbourhood also went up for sale. We heard nothing. The other houses all sold. We had nothing. The date of the move came. Still nothing.

    We packed up what we needed, left our house fully furnished and moved out west to live with complete strangers from our new church in hopes the house would sell quickly. For about 5 months we waited... nothing. Then one day, almost overnight the thing finally sold!

    And the timing turned out to be perfect... We were able to find our dream house for rent in the country - which the landlords had just dropped the rent on to within our price range since they hadn't been able to find a renter for 3-4 months..

    In these times of waiting and not understanding and trying to find the way, God continues to work behind the scenes so that everything falls perfectly into place. It just takes faith in the moment to trust he's doing that.

    These moments will all make sense in time and you will love telling story of it all - every anxious moment of it!

    Praying for you in the meantime! I know your home is out there for you; God's just working to make it perfect! :)

  8. Sorry... didn't mean for that to turn into a novel! ;)

  9. Congratulations on selling your home!! He IS faithful, and will bring you to the right place in the right time. Looking back on the adventure is always easier, but he who has brought you this far is FAITHFUL! I know that I have told you just a little of our story, but when we wanted our house to sell, we had the "perfect" plan in mind in where we were going to live. When the house sold 1 year later after putting it on the market, we ended up where we would never have dreamed, but it was the best possible place to be. It is a long story, but now we are settled, and in a house that we love. The whole struggle of it all taught us lessons we wouldn't have learned if it would've been easy like we thought it would be. And now we are more free to pursue God as he has been opening doors for us. Bless you in your journey, can't wait to see how it turns out.. bet you can't either:)

  10. Praying for sleep, trust, faith, and the warming reminder of what REAL LOVE feels like! God loves you more than you will ever know, He has you cradled in His strong and ever faithful hands. Allow Him to lead you, keep looking and praying...He will provide the right house, in the right timing!!!
    And for now, snuggle down into that warmth, stay cozy by trusting that which is His Love for YOU!

  11. sasha,

    i'm so happy for you. god is really working in your life! congrats on selling your house!

    i'm sure things are so hectic for you right now, but i just signed up for indie business 3.0 and just thought you would really be perfect for it. you are so talented!! all of the info is on my blog!


  12. I haven't been able to sleep lately either due to stress. I've been doing something I've never done before in my life - list all God's attributes in alphabetical order, as many as I can. I have never gotten past J. :)

    Be encouraged. God has this one. He has a place for you, and He will show you exactly where.

  13. Your faith inspires me!

    When we moved last April we had looked at over 40 houses. None really fit our needs. We were ready to settle on one.

    That evening I was sitting at my dear friends house and she mentioned her elderly neighbor had passed away that week.

    Her beautiful home was now being sold by her son. We were so blessed and amazed. Hang onto that faith and God will take you exactly where you should be.

  14. You're gonna be alright. Take a deep breath...keep reminding yourself of all He's done for you. You will find the right house...the PERFECT house just for you. It will all be over soon. Hang in there sweet girl.

  15. I believe God is using you as you write, right where you are. That line you shared about The happy ending God has already! I shared with a friend who is feeling overwhelmed with life, Worry and Strife. I reminded her God's story lines always have great endings, and I believe we made a difference for her today...So thank you for sharing your heart worries and concerns because God is touching lives via YOU. Right place, right time. All in His Time.!
    You gave me the words, and I gave them to her and right when she needed them. PERFECT.
    We could not have planed it!

  16. Saying a prayer that God will give you peace and that you'll find the right house.


  17. Congrats on selling your house! I'll be praying for your family. It is so hard to trust when you don't know where you're going with a situation.

    We had a situation that required much faith. We had to move for hubby's job. We bought our new house (very old, not new) with my mom so that she didn't live alone. We hadn't sold our old house,but we had renters. They split then we had to make payments on two houses. Hubby lost his job then we had no choice but to not pay the mortgage on the old house. We ended up working with the mortgage company and sold it short sale. Not something I ever wanted to do.

    All that to say don't excuse all houses that are short sale. Ours was no problem to sell that way and it was a timely sale. Just my 2 cents.

    Praying for ya'll!

  18. What an exciting time in your life to trust God with! Thinking that you don't even know where you're going to live but trusting in Him still.

    This is such a sweet opportunity to see Him work :) Just think, He already knows exactly where He wants your family and is waiting for the perfect time to show you! How fun!

  19. I've been in your shoes twice- both when our houses were sold, and then we were ready but just could not find the right place. But then it all works out. Like you said- God sees the big picture. We don't, but He's getting your house ready, even when you're getting your good night's sleep.