Friday, May 20, 2011

Once a princess, always a princess.

A few minutes ago, I looked into the mirror.  Looking back at me, was a Mama with tear-stained eyes, at her wit's end.  The peace of the morning, recently shattered by a knock on the door, where I came face-to-face with the places I have failed in my job.  All week long, I've been seeking answers to questions much bigger than my own wisdom. 


Minutes ago, I set my bible on the kitchen table, frantically begged God to speak, and then let it fall open where it would.  Before my eyes, was Genesis 17:15-16  "God also said to Abraham, 'As for Sarai your wife, you are no longer to call her Sarai; her name will be Sarah.  I will bless her and will surely give  you a son by her.  I will bless her so that she will be the mother of nations; kings of peoples will come from her.'" 

It didn't make a lot of sense to my situation, and at first I thought perhaps God didn't have much of a message for me today, until I scanned the commentary notes below.  They said, "Sarai...Sarah.  Both names evidently mean 'princess.' The renaming stressed that she was to be the mother of nations and kings and thus serve the Lord's purpose."  This happened 13 years after Sarai had taken things into her own hands, while waiting for the fulfillment of a promised baby of her own.  She had tried to solve this problem, by giving her maid to her husband, so that she could have a baby that way.  (She'd gotten a little tired of waiting for the "impossible" as she saw menopause pass her by, and decided she would fix things for God.) 


Basically, she failed. She failed big, too.  If you look at the history books and what came from her lack of faith and her sin, you can see that the consequences are still playing out today between her descendents and the descendents of her maid. 

But what it boils down to is this; In spite of all that.... God still kept His end of the bargain, and He still called her, "princess," regardless of what she had done. 

I don't know if anyone else needed to hear that today, but I sure did. 


15 comments:

  1. Hugs friend. Not sure what you're going through but glad to hear that God met you there and let you know how much you are adored! Being a mom to a kiddo with special needs, I know the frustration and feelings of failure it can cause within me. It's always good to be reminded that we are daughter's of the King.

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  2. I've been reading your blog for awhile and I just love it! I look forward to every post! I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your situation and I so appreciate your transparency and honesty in the face of difficult circumstances. Hang on sister, God has a beautiful tapestry He's weaving in your life and you'll love the finished product. Even if the black threads seem ugly right now! You inspire and encourage me!

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  3. I sure needed to hear this!
    Thank you so much for sharing your journey... it continues to line up with where I'm at... and all that God is doing in my life.
    In all that you are experiencing... and knowing... and feeling... and believing... you are remaining faithful... steadfast... courageous... and humble.
    And you continue to cling to your identity in Him... as His Princess... His daughter. Wow!
    Thank you!

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  4. so true sweet girl.
    praying for you...obviously not sure what's going over in your home right now but know this atlanta girlie is lifting you up!
    xo

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  5. Very true. Thinking of you and hoping things get better for you. Sending hugs and love your way!

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  6. Once again, God is speaking to me thru your encouragment, support and yes, your blog. Thank you Princess from a sister Princess. I am praying for you and God to navigate your decisions each day. Hugs to you friend.

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  7. Precious comfort. He gave me some sweet correction a few years ago, confronted me on denying the royal princess part of my identity. Because when I dismiss this as fanciful or say I'm not worthy I deny Him His place as King of Kings and mine as His beloved child. Not cool at all.

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  8. This is the 3rd time this week that God has put the story of Abraham & Sarah in my path... thinking that He's wanting me to check it out... hmmmmm??????
    Our family is currently in a "What in the world is next???" mode and the uncertainty certainly wants me to take things into my own hands and make some decisions! Often times, along with the uncertainty, there is a sense that somehow I'm not measuring up too... How in the world can I handle this AND fix it too???
    Thanks for the reminder that I am a princess and will always be a princess regardless of where God takes us, because ultimately, I want to be where He wants me to be. Thanks and I'm off to read me a little Genesis. :)

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  9. Sending you peace today...
    There are no failures, only lessons. My son taught me this. Whatever it is for you, know that you are on this path for a reason and it is all in your best interest. Keep the faith, girl.

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  10. Sasha I'm so sorry for whatever it is that's troubling you. Sending hugs and love for a fellow daughter of the King!

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  11. Princesses have tiaras right? So just wear yours proudly as a daughter of the King. I only know about you what I've read in your posts, which I love. Failure is only when you give up and quit for good and you seem like a fighter and a finisher. Fight the good fight sister, God will bless you!

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  12. i know what you're talking about with sarahs mistake and ishmael and all that that caused. i know when we take things into our own hands, it never works out right. we all such control freaks, are we not? so good, again. feel better, my friend.

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  13. This was SO encouraging...I have been contemplating it ever since you posted it.

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