Friday, July 15, 2011

The Slightest Breath of Wind

I'm not a sailor, but I've seen enough pirate flicks over the years, to know a little something about doldrums.  I know that they are eerie, dreaded, and you don't want them to last for any suspended length of time.  With hindsight being what it is, I can say that Adrain and I have recently been stuck in the doldrums of life.  All around us was silent, still... and water rationing was a must for survival.  (Okay, I like to get a little carried away with my analogies sometimes.)  Basically, the quiet wasn't welcome.  We wanted to get back on course. 

Last week, we felt a slight ruffle in our hair, as the gentlest hint of wind signaled the possible end to those doldrums.  This week, we gazed up at the tattered sails of our faith, and wondered if they were going to hold fast against the sudden gale, swirling all around us, rocking our little boat from side to side. 

My husband has been asked to transfer to a different location and position within his company.  We have been on an entirely different course for the length of our journey up to this point as many of you know, so this change in the direction of the wind took us by surprise.  And it wasn't the "Surprise, the UPS man just dropped off a big box from Pottery Barn for you!" kind of surprise either.  It was more of an "Oh crap.  Now what?" kind of surprise.  This change brings with it, an entire package of unknowns.  Things, they are a changin.' 

Nothing is set in concrete yet, but it appears that God has been moving some crazy things around for this to come about so that we most likely won't have to move.  My husband will most likely join the throng of daily commuters, so he'll be needing a car, since we only own one.  (He has been provided a company car with his current position for the past eight years.) His work schedule will change, and he will no longer be based from his office, here in our home.  I can't even go there right now, or I think I might cry.  I'll miss his face, popping in and out all day. This may sound ridiculous, but I'll miss his presence in our town. Okay, I'm crying.  I can't help myself. 

Okay....(deep breath) I did come here for a reason. 


Though we are facing an unknown sea stretching out before us, unknown obstacles, and a strange wind, pushing us into a heading we didn't plan for,(and do not want in any way) we are finally moving.  We are completely and willingly surrendering to this next phase, though we would never have picked this in a million years if we'd been the ones in charge... The pieces of this puzzle could only have been laid out by God because they make no sense to our frail little minds.  I find myself standing on the deck of this ship, expectant with what I know God to be capable of doing, hesitant because I really don't want this, and neither does my man, fearful of the unknown, yet filled with faith, and overall so incredibly grateful that we are no longer huddled on board, rationing our water, and praying for a slight breath of wind... He is faithful. 


"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

18 comments:

  1. i SO feel for you here! my husband and i work together at our own business. when things get dicey & we wonder if we'll be able to keep it up...i hurts my heart! it really does.
    praying Gods picture..the other side of the tapestry is more beautiful than you could ever have imagined! And Exciting too cause we all need a lil' excitment now & then!
    have a blessed weekend! it's gonna be a HOT one here!

    Rebecca

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  2. blessings sasha, whatever the future holds! you can always move to southern oregon;)

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  3. God is stretching a lot I'm seeing and while now may be uncomfortable the things He has in store are going to be amazing.

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  4. I love that verse...definitely my life verse:) I find myself really excited watching this unfold and I realize I'm the one viewing, not living, but we really have been living similar "destination unknowns" for awhile now and watching yours unfold keeps giving me hope for my own uncertainties...thanks as always for being real:) And I can't wait to hear more!!!

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  5. He is faithful, indeed. Prayers for you and your family, Sasha.

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  6. Sasha, my husband and I have been in that boat for a while. I thought I knew what he was wanting us to do. He moved us from the comforts of living minutes away from family to hours. What's become of us, growth, growth and more growth. Dependance completely on him and new understanding. I'm so glad to hear your moving forward and I can't wait to see where he takes you!

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  7. still praying, sasha. :)

    it's all in his hands...and really, that's the best place for it to be, right?? :)

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  8. He definitely is faithful ALWAYS--lean not on your own understanding and go with it friend: )

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  9. You and your family are in my prayers. You are such a strong woman and your husband is so lucky. I wish you all the best in everything.

    Jessica

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  10. you are moving? like away moving? like out of my area moving? spill it girl!!!

    I love the way you write!

    you NEED to call your friend and fill me in!

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  11. "When life hands you lemons, make lemonade"....if anyone can handle it, it's gotta be you! You are always so positive and finding the good in everything. I'm sure this will all turn out ok too, once you find a new 'normal'. Hugs!

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  12. just when you think life is certain, it's get UNcertain in a hurry, doesn't it?! praying God shows you they way clearly...blessings to you and yours, girlie.

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  13. I know you will move through this challenge with your usual grace and serenity. God can see the big picture when we can't...

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  14. Thanks for sharing. my daughter's husband of three weeks was told this week of changes where he works. One position close(but he's the least senior), a transfer many states away, or a buy out. God is faithful and knows our path, we just have to follow His lead.

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  15. I know what you mean wanting your hubby in your house every day. My hubs gets to work from home when he wants. One day I realized that we just have peace in our house when he's there - even though he's locked in his office most of the day. Just knowing he's on the other side of the door, and seeing his face when he comes out for a break, is so reassuring. Soon he will be moving his office home and I can't wait!

    I will be praying for your family during this transition!

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  16. "The pieces of this puzzle could only have been laid out by God because they make no sense to our frail little minds. "

    Brilliant.

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  17. Joshua 1:9 comes to mind friend. Cling to the mast, for the sails have HIS wind in them. Who knows, the sweet smell of sea air, may just be what you need after all. Prayers are with you. And don't forget your sign you were painting. Great is THY faithfulness. Sing it when you get afraid.

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  18. I so understand! In late 2008 my husband and I both lost our jobs, had to sell our home and relocated from California to Washington state also spending months apart from one another. It was an awful time in our lives, but He had a plan for us, even though we didn't want it at the time. In the end, it has brought our family closer together and has truly shown me what is important in my life. I now am a stay at home wife/mother now and have really treasured that time, even though financially it has been a struggle. God is so good and really help me to open my eyes. Just keep swimming as Dora said and He will guide you.

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