Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Gracious days and polka dot bowls

I admit it.  I had myself a little pity party not so long very ago.  I started listing everything that was not what I wanted in life, and with balled up fists demanded of God, "So are You just taking away everything that was good, in my life?  Is it because I took too many things for granted?  I didn't appreciate how good I had it, so You had to strip it away so I could see what I hadn't seen before?"  My mind was racing angrily, too loudly for silence, but even amidst my mental tirade, the question struggling up from my heart was, "Why?"  As in, why do I do this?  Why do I know in my heart that I serve a good God, who loves me, and promises to give me a hope and future, yet I wait for the "other shoe to drop?"  I anticipate that bad things are on the horizon, even though I just got done processing the idea of hope slightly more than a week ago?  Why do I automatically jump to this negative conclusion? 
 Instantly my answer flashed through my brain, because I know exactly why I do that, think that, and worry about all that.  Because I know what I deserve.  I know what I think, and do, and don't do, and I know that I deserve to have everything blessed slip through my fingers.  I deserve to walk a rotten path.  I've done nothing to deserve anything but that... and maybe I'm finally getting my due.  And then... well then... the Holy Spirit whispered.  So quiet, my breath caught as the words unfolded themselves all around me like a blanket of peace on a cold day.  "No one deserves anything... it's all by grace...that anyone is saved from the bleakness of an eternity without the presence of God... not of themselves or anything they've done, but a free gift...given from a heart of unfathomable love, and accepted by us, through impossible faith. 

It hit me afresh, this thing we call grace.  It's interwoven with faith, and faith is the bedrock.  God isn't some awful being, waiting to squash me like a bug, or smite me with His hand.  Rather, He is standing beside the cross where he poured out His love for me, and offering me grace every day.  That day may hold junk, or it may hold delight, but all are His blessings, because it's by grace alone that I'm allowed my next breath in His presence. 
 Be encouraged friends.... whatever path you and I are walking, the very fact that we are walking it, is testament of His grace that allows our feet to touch the ground He created.  "This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe.  There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified (just-as-if-I'd-never-sinned) freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus." Romans 3:22-24


We have only to accept this grace for each day... it's a free gift from a good God. 



22 comments:

  1. A gift bought at an amazing price. He is SO good!

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  2. Just beautiful!!! Thank you God for your grace and your mercy and that we have new mercies every morning!!! I love that about him!!!

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  3. This is beautiful!! ;) LOVE this post and hope things get better for ya! I was just thinking I need to reserve at least one of those crates for when you open your shop again!! I will decide how many when I know what postage is!! ;) But for sure one! ;)

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  4. Wow... so, so good... and timely for me. I really needed this today. I am very glad that God laid it on your heart and you were gracious in sharing it.

    And... I kind of feel like a stalker, because I just started following your fb page, and I get all excited when you post. Creepy, I know...

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  5. Crimson love babe....crimson love.

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  6. Tears in my eyes as I was just yelling (silently of course, don't want to scare my kiddo ha!) at the ceiling "SERIOUSLY, WHY?!"

    Needed to hear this. So very much.

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  7. THanks so much for this post!I really needed to hear this! You are such a blessing!

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  8. I know exactly how you feel! You are not alone in the 'other shoe to drop' syndrome. Thank Jesus for grace offered freely to all who believe in Him! Just today I read a blog that your post kind of reminds me of..it's from Proverbs 31 Ministries...if you have sec it's worth reading...It's called "Arise from the Wreckage"

    http://devotions.proverbs31.org/

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  9. You knew the words my heart needs to hear this week. I've been struggling with my faith since Thursday when our world came crashing down around us with the loss of our baby bean. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop once we found out we were pregnant b/c that is what I knew I deserved. Then when it did drop I got mad and I questioned why and I forgot to look at the gifts we've been given and the grace God has shared with our family. Thank you today for reminding me.

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  10. Mands, that link you shared encouraged me so much I read it to my entire family tonight after dinner. Thank YOU!

    Mama Monki, I'm so sorry for your loss... I don't have any words, but I am praying for you tonight. Thank you for trusting us with your vulnerability and your heartache. Praying peace over you right this minute sweet one.

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  11. Thank you for reminding me my current struggles are worthwhile. What a might God we serve!

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  12. The difference between grace and mercy.
    Grace is getting what we DON'T deserve. Mercy is NOT getting what we DO deserve.
    Words to ponder. It is great knowing that our Lord gives us both grace and mercy.

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  13. Thank you for sharing your journey of faith, the struggles and joys with us. He does promise us trials and He does promise us hope and joy. I know what you mean about waiting for the other shoe to drop and I think that comes from the enemy, robbing us of our sweet closeness with Him. Praying for you to see and feel His love this very day!

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  14. I was just talking to my husband about this very thing yesterday....Grace...God's grace...His unmerited favor that I do not deserve...and when I think that He gave His only son...I can barely speak.

    Thanks for the lovely post.

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  15. nope He does't want to squash you like a bug. isn't that the best revelation ever??:) oh how He loves you! YOU miss sasha!!!

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  16. Your posts are so lovely. Thank you for reminding me that every day is a gift. (and I'm in love with those adorable yellow polka-dot bowls!)

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  17. Ah Sasha - you made me ponder today the wisdom and truth in your words. I sometimes feel that we often claim to have faith. However, it is those times that we are walking BY our faith, that true faith grows......Keep cultivating your spiritual garden, for I see the blooms beginning to open my friend.

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  18. Beautiful post! I'm so thankful for His grace and mercy!

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  19. I am a new reader and boy am I glad I read this! I often feel that way. I always seem to think a little negatively and I too wait for 'the other shoe to drop. Thank you for reminding me that God is merciful and forgiving. Blessings, Jen

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  20. wow, i wish i knew this love. i would sure love to learn. I am so glad i found your blog!!

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  21. goodness, I think we need to talk. I am again so with you.

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