Monday, September 12, 2011

Wrap me in pearls and call me, "June Cleaver"


Today I'm making pot roast.  I'm pretty sure I owe you guys a meaty post.  (Pardon the pun.) I've been so busy with school starting and finding my way in the adjustment process, that I've been neglecting you guys just a little.  Not to mention that we went gluten free as a family for health concerns last week, and I decided to go ahead and have a birthday smack in the middle of all that!   
 So anyway, here we are.  I'm doing my level best to economize around here, as the financial knot that wraps around everything from September to January begins to strangle us slowly.  (Amen?) That said, I decided it was time to learn how to cook a pot roast.  (You know, and then have meat for weeks on end, afterward?)
 Believe it or not, I have never cooked a pot roast, and I've been terrified just thinking about it all weekend.  I know, it's shocking, isn't it?  I stared at this pot for a full five minutes, trying to be brave.  Who knew a little red pot could be so intimidating. 
 I honestly didn't even know where to begin, so I started with Pioneer Woman. (You can find her recipe here.)
 
 I followed her words to the letter, searing the meat, browning the veggies, deglazing the pot, adding fresh herbs, and promising not to disturb it for hours, so this baby had better turn out!
 

 I've got to switch tracks for a minute while I continue showing you my pot roast photos (I did promise y'all some meat, right?) and share what's been on my heart and in my head for the past weekend. Because in all truth, if you were in my kitchen with me right now, this is what we'd be talking about.  (Well, I mean we'd talk about you too of course.)  I'm absolutely head over heels with this song by Michael Gungor. (I even kind of like the banjo, just saying.) What I love about it, is the words. Whether you know what our past year has been like or not, makes no difference, because we've all had moments when we were in that place of silence... that place so far away and wondered where God was, in the dark and the quiet.  Where was He in the hopeless feeling that overwhelmed at 2:00 am?  Well... He was there.
 
As I look backward, I'm seeing mighty fingerprints spreading out like a fan around me.  I could have written the beginning of this song.  "Out on the farthest edge, there in the silence, You were there.  My faith was torn to shreds, heart in the balance, but You were there.  Always faithful, always good, You still have my heart."    The thing is, I was thinking about the whole waiting game, and I realized that it's the waiting that makes you stronger.  Stronger for what, I'm still unsure, but I believe it's not being wasted.

 You need strength, because it's the little moments of "yuck" that steal tiny pieces of your heart, leaving a hardened edge where that soft tissue used to be.  You have to dig down deep into that strength, and choose softening, because it doesn't just happen. You have to make the conscious choice to turn into the biting wind, not away from it, like all of your instincts are telling you.  Besides offering a near-constant stream of thanks for all the things we are experiencing but wouldn't have chosen, I've been praying for soft words.  Soft thoughts.  Soft responses. 
 So there you go.
 Chew on that while I finish getting this hunk of meat into the oven.  (I can not wait to see my man's face when he walks in and smells our kitchen.)  I'm making mashed potatoes to go with it.  Yum!
 And perhaps when it's finally done cooking, I'll sneak back on here to let you guys know how it turned out.  
 ****Okay update****It was GREAT!  I mean, soooo good you guys.  Why did I never do this before now?  And why was I so afraid?  Here was what my man said for about ten straight minutes while eating, "Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm."  No lie. 

What's on your mind today?  
 

32 comments:

  1. Sounds so yummy. I'm cooking up a storm today too. Pork ribs in the crock pot. my house smells soooo yummy! carrots onions and spinach brown rice to go along. I can't wait for honey to get home!

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  2. We're having chili and corn bread tonight! Never mind the fact that it's 81 degrees right now, but it sounded good. : )

    It's been a rough week and it's only Monday. *sigh* Car issues...trying to find rides for kiddos to activities...feeling like one big mushy ball of pregnancy hormones. This too shall pass, right?

    Can't wait to see what your family thought of the pot roast! And for pictures of it!

    **hugs**

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  4. I finally figured this comment thing out! Loved your words today...so incredibly true. I'll look up your song. Blessed Be Your Name is the song me and the Big Guy dance to :) Say hi to your man for us! love Cristi & Andy

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  5. Yum!! I bet your house smells terrific!! Gorgeous photos of your veggies!! Makes me want to go eat some carrots!! :)

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  6. Sasha, this line "turn into the biting wind, not away from it, like all of your instincts are telling you" was meant for me. Thank you.

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  7. girlfriend i gotta tell ya
    i was hanging with my college friends ( not my daughter) yesterday. one of the girls said, ms paige, let me show you some ideas i have for jewelry storage.
    she opens pinterest
    she opens YOUR picture of the frames with chicken wire.
    i'm like...that's my friend....i dropped your name...acting all cool like i just so happened to be buds with her random pinterest photo girl.
    you're a star
    i'm so glad i know you!!!
    pss
    way to rock the roast.
    never made one? really?
    i'm sure the fam all bowed down & called you queen
    xoxoxo

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  8. oh how i love me a good pot roast. reminds me i haven't made one in a very very long time. looked pretty as a picture...all of it.

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  9. I just realized that I kind of look like an old grandma with my flour sack dishtowel tied around my waist like that. If it didn't make you giggle, go back and look.

    See what I mean??

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  10. I needed the words of this beautiful song at this place in my life. In my hurt and my heartache, I forgot that He was right there hurting with me. Thank you.

    I hope your roast turned out delish. I'm sure it will. If you ever want to short cut and do it easy try using your crockpot.

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  11. Ha...I've never seen a grandma rock a flour sack dishtowel like that! Can't wait to hear how it turns out! Love your blog!!

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  12. I made my first pot roast a few weeks ago. I used my Aunt's recipe that I've been wanting to use since I got married almost 3yrs ago. And I must say that I finally feel like I've arrived as a wife and a real southern woman since making this fabulous meal! There are so many things to do with the left overs. I made bbq with mine! YUM!!!

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  13. I love this post! I've been wondering a lot why the "waiting game" is so necessary....it's SO hard! I thought it would be easier this time around in the adoption world, but it's almost as hard as it was before.

    I guess that even though it's not much, "almost" is the key word. We've gotta learn and change bit by bit!\

    I can't wait to see how your roast turned out...delicious I'm sure! :)

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  14. June,

    You can't leave me hanging like that. You just can't. It's wrong. I must see your roast. And I have to hear what you and your man thought about it. I love PW-- just made her coffee cake Friday-- two thumbs up.

    Anyway, love you and love your blog. Thought I should mention it since I'm always so quiet over here.

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  15. Yum, sounds wonderful. I fell in love with your blog today. It sends out happiness. I found you on SITS today, and I'm really glad. Your photography is stunning. So crisp and bright! What is your secret?

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  16. Yum!! I have to try that recipe!! The pictures alone made me feel like I was on an adventure withyou making it!! Love your blog!! :)

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  17. I just have to say that I love you. I am very thankful for your blog. You make me a better me. I truly thank God for you.

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  18. I hope you enjoyed that roast! I bet your house smelled delicious!! I will have to look at that link to Pw before I do mine.

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  19. Oh my goodness, I love me some good pot roast and what man doesn't love it too?! I am going to borrow your PW recipe because I was drooling over those carmelized veggie pics. I can't imagine how yummy the roast itself would be! I know what you mean about neglecting the blog. I've been AWOL too. I finally started fresh tonight with a new name and everything, so please come sit for a spell and check it out if you get a chance :) http://www.denimanddandelions.blogspot.com/

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  20. Mmmmm... You've inspired me to take up pot roast! :) And why, oh why do I not yet have PW's cookbook!?

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  21. i'm kinda coveting your red pot a little bit. and if i need a recipe, PW is where i start too. your pot roast looks delisioso...and that's ok if you look like a granny...granny's are goooood cooks!!
    oh, and i threw a wedding shower on sunday, featuring TWO of your cupcake recipes...posted on it last night. i'm a little bummed cause i didn't let me salted carmel sauce cook long enough so it was more of a glaze then a big ol' dollop, but it was still really yummy and no one knew the diff. thanks for your super yummy recipes!! :)

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  22. Welcome sign is hung. . .crate of books is out. New floors are in upstairs...girls bedroom furniture delivered. Walls are freshly painted. Dust everywhere. Kitchen remodel (counters) starts tomorrow. Patience is what I need. . .and a good old fashioned pot roast in my crock pot: )

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  23. Thanks for sharing a great song, I have already downloaded it on my ipod :)

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  24. How life rewards us for trying new things, huh? Enjoy your leftovers!

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  25. I love love love Gungor. They pastor a church in town that I go to every once in a while and he and his wife are the sweetest people!

    I was thinking about the very same song a lot this weekend. Even in the darkness and pain from 10 years ago, he was there. And he always will be.

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  26. Looks so yummy! I am making chicken and noodles tomorrow at the request of my honey. Can't wait. I love making him a meal. Call me old fashioned, but cooking is love to me.

    I so love your blog - your writing and your photos --so lovely!

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  27. Oh YUM. I LOVE making pot roast. And, I currently have all the ingredients to do it too. Guess what's for dinner?

    We've received the answer to the prayer that we've been waiting for... (oddly enough the answer to that prayer was moving to Seattle area.) now, that has opened up 45 other things that we need to pray over. Haha, the irony of that makes me chuckle. I'm so thankful that God is constant, even when my weak heart is changed by whatever whim comes it's way. He is a sure tower in all the madness.

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  28. "I realized that it's the waiting that makes you stronger. Stronger for what, I'm still unsure, but I believe it's not being wasted."

    Oh, I so hope so. Lots of hard edges being revealed and it is so hard choose the softening.

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  29. June , haha -
    I made a pot roast last week and I fely all warm and fuzzy!
    Your looks delish!
    Have a pretty day!
    Kristin

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  30. reminds me of the john waller song "i'm waiting"

    I'm waiting
    I'm waiting on You, Lord
    And I am hopeful
    I'm waiting on You, Lord
    Though it is painful
    But patiently, I will wait

    uuhh, it gets me every time i hear it. you're so spot on with your message. so many need to hear it. thanks for being you even when it was hard because you've helped so many do what we couldn't figure out alone. so many of us are touched by your words. i can only hope to help someone someday.

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  31. Ahhh, your pictures inspire me!!! ;)

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  32. Okay, I'm right there with you about the whole never cooking a pot roast before. I mean I'm the girl who serves her family chicken every night because I don't even know what meat to buy when I go to the grocery. Thanks for sharing "June" now maybe I'll give it a go too!

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