Sunday, October 16, 2011

Breaking my heart for what breaks His.

Sadly, no photos today.  I was feeling kind of overwhelmed this weekend and haven't taken many photos of anything for you guys!  I'm falling down on the job over here, huh?

Yesterday, we spent the day touring the city my man works in now, and the surrounding area, trying to get a feel for what area we want to live in.  We are still feeling the green light to "go," and are praying that God steps in and stops us or changes our hearts if we are meant to stay... but until then, we are cautiously moving forward, keeping our eyes on Him, praying for guidance.  I'm so hoping someone wants to buy our house just as soon as we decide to put it on the market.  (A girl can hope, right?)  The good news, we think we found a home we'd love to make our own!   

You know what's weird?  It's like that one little thing... finding a home, that made us begin to feel like we might actually be able to stand the transition.  What is it, about finding a home?  Even the kiddos began getting into the spirit of things- which is huge since I've birthed two of the most change-hating children on the planet.  Ha!

This morning, I found myself slipping into that dream mode, where I could see the home we just found, filled to the brim with friends and family, festive moments, kids and dogs running in and out, good food, and plenty of laughter.  (I also saw a massive dining table that seats 12 peeps, in my "dreams," but that may not be a reality for many years to come.)  The thing is, as I spent time talking to the Lord about all the ins and outs of it, He reminded me of my purpose.  Extending love and comfort to those in need of it.  2 Corinthians 1:3-4 says, "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."  

I could get all excited about the adventure of it all, and the planning and decorating of a different house, and I'm ashamed at how quickly the significant things God cares about escape my mind.  Like little faces who don't have parents to tuck them in each night. Or homeless men and women who have no table to sit around for a holiday meal, and so many other people in need all around us.  Priscilla Shirer put it this way, "When I'm excited by my own need being met but not nearly as anxious to see God's purposes served, it's apparent I've got some work to do."  This one bit my heart a little, as I realized how easily I go down the wrong side of that path.  Not that excitement in an adventure or new house is all bad... but I know in my heart that I've been put here for a purpose... put there for a purpose.  Not just my own comfort.  Not just my own enjoyment and fulfillment.  Here for others.  Here to love.  Here to extend comfort.  Here to serve.

We had other plans for our life... and they didn't quite pan out, but that doesn't mean that our mission in life changes with this move.  I am looking forward to seeing what is in store.  Maybe we will move.  Maybe we will stay.  But either way, we receive to give.

I hope I don't easily forget that. 


  1. praying it's a CLEAR green light for you guys!

  2. Amen Sasha! Echoing your words.
    We have moved many times and each time we moved my perception of it changed. It's not about decorating a new house, it's about how God will you use you for His purpose....and knowing that makes the move so much easier. : )
    P.S. you aren't slacking, you are just sharing what's on your heart.

  3. YES!!

    Girl, the two of us are quite a pair over the last year or so, aren't we? With any luck you'll end up in a 1960's rental with no dishwasher! ;)

  4. Yes!!! Here's to green lights from God: ) And to giving...and of course, grace!!

  5. Be still and hear God. He'll make his plans known to you. Glad you can look at it from an adventure standpoint.
    I've got two change-haters too!
    It's all about growth...

  6. Since you are a family of faith, make sure your new church home is integrated into where you move. I have a number of friends who bought their homes first, only to find out there are no churches close by to meet the needs of them or their children. They are now driving 30 minutes to church. Pretty hard to invite your neighbor kids to the next event. Some food for thought for you.

  7. Thanks Naomi- that's actually one of the first things we thought about and the good news is that our church has a sister church only 10 minutes from where we are looking to move! Pretty cool, huh? Thanks for the tip!

  8. It will be well with your soul when the answer comes. And give yourself a break about no photos, you don't need that pressure on top of all the stuff going on in your life. I'm pretty sure we all just like hearing from you!
    Sweet Blessings!

  9. Loved this post....God has been reminding me that, like Abraham, we are blessed to be a blessing! May we not take this lightly. :)

  10. you're such a sweetie pie! I love your heart for God!