Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Green pastures baby!

Have you ever noticed, that you can't tell someone what they just don't know?  I mean, you can, but until they know it deep down, in the marrow of their bones, they can't really know.  You know?  Eighteen months ago, I thought I knew.  But I didn't.  And I know that now.  I'm not saying I know yet, but I know more than I did, and that's a starting point. 

As I walked out in the sunshine today, I breathed in that distinct flavor of fall.  Coppery leaves flashed golden as the sunlight danced with a gentle breeze.  Silvery spiderwebs clung, heavy with dew, to branches.  My doggy trotted happily next to me, her tail wagging, and her eyes wary for the occasional squirrel.  As I walked, I thought. 
 I mostly thought about what I don't know regarding our future... but I did think about how many of you carried our family last year while we tried desperately to sell our home.  So many of you sent encouragement along the way, and most of you scratched your heads in frustration right alongside us, when our house finally sold but then turned out to be a bogus offer at the last minute.  You sympathized with us as we unpacked our entire house, and prepared for whatever was to come... Many of you, with the seasonings of life to flavor your words, shared things like, "There is reason God is not allowing your house to sell.  He has a different plan for you guys, so hang in there and in time you will better understand." 

Yeah.  I knew... but at the time, I didn't really know.  And today as I walked around the neighborhood that I've come to love so well, I realized that at least one component of it all has clicked firmly into place.  If we had gotten the house we pined after for months on end, everything would be a big, nasty mess.  I didn't know.  But God knew.  And really, some of you knew too... because you've lived a similar story, and you've seen that when something doesn't make sense, or isn't right, or doesn't fit... the best thing, is to hang on, open your hands, let go, and look up.  He knows.  We could have never in a million years, anticipated my man's job position and location change.  Or having to purchase another car, and the cost of commuting.  Or the drain on our expenses because of all that, but I thank God every day that we aren't locked into a house that we just purchased last Summer! 
 I've been re-reading through one of my favorite encouragement books- "A Shepherd looks at Psalm 23" by Phillip Keller.  You know that portion, "He makes me lie down in green pastures?"  I love that part. (It's hard to lay down when you're fretting.)  Today, I read this; "We live a most uncertain life. Any hour can bring disaster, danger, and distress from unknown quarters.  Life is full of hazards.  No one can tell what a day will produce in new trouble.  We live either in a sense of anxiety, fear, and foreboding, or in a sense of quiet rest.  Which is it?  Generally it is the "unknown,"  the "unexpected," that produces the greatest panic.  It is in the grip of fear that most of us are unable to cope with the cruel circumstances and harsh complexities of life....Often our first impulse is simply to get up and run from them.  Then in the midst of our misfortunes there suddenly comes the awareness that He, the Christ, the Good Shepherd is there.  It makes all the difference...Rest returns and I can relax."  

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of self discipline." (2 Timothy 1:7)  

I don't know much... but I know I want that.  Green pastures, free to rest, and free of fear.  If you do too, look UP.

12 comments:

  1. Again, thank you for sharing. We recently moved to WA (may I ask where you're moving to in WA - we drive through Bellingham on our way to my in-laws house in Langley) and are so thankful the house we are selling isn't the one we originally wanted to buy. We're ready to sell the house God ended up leading us to so we can buy up here and are praying that happens sooner than later but are so thankful we aren't selling the house we thought we wanted originally!

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  2. You always write such beautiful God-inspired posts!!! This was another good one just for me!! ;)

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  3. i love that part too...it immediately brings me peace. i can actually visualize it in my head. i didn't even think about what a mess everything would have been if you got the other house. so good to do that...to recognize His hand and guidance in every situation.

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  4. Wow, I am so thankful for you, your desire to seek God, and your desire and willingness to share your journey. Wanted to let you know that I've only been reading your blog for a short time--maybe a couple of months--and your walk and response to what life tosses your direction has encouraged me in my walk and what life is tossing in my direction on more than one occasion. Thanks for sharing yourself with us.

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  5. I'm sure it has been a bit of a journey but isn't it wonderful when you realise it was for "our own good" that God allowed those sometimes crazy things to transpire the way that they did. Because on the other side of all the craziness, after learning the lessons looking back you see Gods hand in it all.
    thanks for posting this one it was very encouraging to me in my journey.
    Keep Going!

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  6. You have no idea how much I needed this right this second...hmmm...He did, though. Thanks, Sasha.

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  7. Such a hard lesson to learn. My husband and I are learning it....again.

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  8. I love your house, I wish I was moving to your state because I'd buy your house! Prayers and happy thoughts from Michigan.

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  9. Praying for peace and that you hear Him whisper in your ear which way to turn. Sweet Blessings.

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