Sunday, January 1, 2012

Yes

I could hear her clomping up the front stairs, one roller skate at a time.  Then the careful shuffling to my front door as she tried not to roll backward off the steps.  I knew she'd be coat-less or just carrying her coat under her arm too.  No matter how many times I told that child that it was 35 degrees and she needed to get her coat on, she didn't listen.  With no mother at home, she wasn't used to taking orders from women.  I sighed as I slid the pans into the sink full of sudsy water.  Rolling my eyes to the left, I checked the time.  "Just great," I muttered.  It was 11:45 in the morning... "just in time for lunch," I thought with irritation, as the doorbell rang.  "Well at least it's not 7:30 am like the other day."  Kids and dogs were racing to the door calling, "Mom, it's Ellison, (not her real name) can she play?"


I stood there mentally listing off the dozens of reasons why it wasn't my favorite idea.  She always came around mealtimes.  I knew it was because she probably never got very good meals at home.  She always stayed until I sent her home.  I knew that was because she probably wanted to be anywhere but home.  She always asked for stuff- toys, food, items laying on the counter.  I wasn't sure I had enough to feed her since I hadn't hit the grocery store yet, and she always ate a lot!  That was on my list of things to do today, along with about ten other items.  Christmas was days away and I had too much to do.

And then He whispered softly, almost audibly.  "Yes." 

"Hold on a minute here," I complained  "I have stuff to do!"  He ignored my list of stuff and whispered it once again, right into the bull's eye of my heart.  "Yes.  Just say yes to Me.  This is my mission field for you right this minute.  Won't you say yes to it?"


Stunned, I stood for just a second, thinking.  Then I flung the dishes back into the sink and reached for a towel to dry my hands with, and gave my assent to the three little faces at my front door.  Instead of irritation, I felt peace sweep over me and His smile settled upon my shoulders.  I was, after all, going for the 'good and faithful servant bit,' you know.  

As I sat across from her at the kitchen table over lunch, eyeing the bangs she'd recently cut off at her hairline,  I knew my word for the coming year.  This inconvenient, messy, irritating YES.  This was the second time in a week that this had happened.  God had placed a broken, hurting, needing vessel in my path and asked me if I was going to do anything.

I wondered why I fight Him so often, and then I realized, it's because when it gets in my way, or shuffles my freedom, or my plans, or disrupts my life, I want to ignore it.  There's a whole lot of my's and I's in there! But  what have this past year and a half have been about for my entire family?  Reaching outside of ourselves, and extending whatever hand of love we can?  2011 held a lot of events for us and in the sum total weren't overly pleasant to our way of thinking.  We thought a lot of things were going to go one way.... but none of them did.  In fact, they went the opposite way.

Instead of curling up in bitter disappointment, we resolved as a family to not let that change what we knew in our hearts was our calling.  Our mission field is all around us.  All we have to do is say YES.  This doesn't mean that I have to say yes to everything under the sun and burn myself out by St. Patrick's day.  What it means for me, is that my tendency is to always say no first... but just because something isn't my plan or convenient or fun, doesn't mean God intends for me to say no.  Because it's not about me. My mission field as a mama, is a city full of hurts and needs... some of them wrapped in shivering eight year old's on roller skates, with noses pressed against my front door window, all hoping someone will say YES.  And that's my reminder this year.  Yes. 


Do you have some area of life begging for change, that can be bottled up into one word?  Last year my word was BE.  I needed to quit worrying about the tomorrows and give God my today's.... just BE.

What is  your word for 2012? 



(Do you want a small, painted reminder like mine?  I'm making some tiny canvas reminders (some square for small words, some longer for big words) for $15.00 each plus $3.00 s/h.  If you want one, let me know by emailing me at lemonademakinmama@comcast.net.  Let me know your word, and I'll put you on my wait order list.  I won't be able to get to them for at least a week.  Fonts and sizes may vary. )

40 comments:

  1. Absolutely love this post . . . brilliant. YES. It's perfect.

    Me? Courage.

    I need it this year. I've got some dreams . . . and there is no time like the present.

    Courage. It's a good one for me.

    Wishing you much joy and "yes" this year!

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  2. Great post!

    My word is "Yes" too! A couple days ago I just bought Lysa Terkeurst's book, What Happens When You Say Yes to God, and I started reading it a couple nights ago.

    I decided that is the perfect word to start out the New Year since I just had to say yes to God with about a decision I am still very nervous about .

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  3. Go is my word. Id love a reminder. The"plan" is not to work next year...or to reduce my contract to only one day a week. When talking about a budget, My mom said I might have to cut back on my internet buys...um, I only buy from you...you and your goodies will stay in the budget: they serve as pretty reminders of my family and Gods gifts to me. Thank you for this offer: )

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  4. Intentional is my word this year I plan on living intentionally in all I do, in loving, in mothering with my food choices with my spending with all I do I want to live intentionally .

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  5. Time. Time with God and Time with my husband and kids. Not just any time or leftover time but quality time. Real time, because they all deserve it and it will only make my life and everyone's around me that much better.

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  6. I am trying to encompass discipline, structure, with the fact that when I get overwhelmed with life and feel defeated, I need a little I can do it to push me ahead. Need a word to embody it all.

    Sasha, How do you write SO beautifully on your chalkboard? Apparently I need a tutorial:)!

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  7. Beautiful post. It's so hard to balance taking care of our families and our homes (with all that involves) and wanting to do our best there... yet not feeling inconvenienced by "interruptions" and staying focused on what the Lord wants from us. Great post and reminder to listen, not lead!

    My word is Persistent.

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  8. love this post and that you heard God speak to you. i have so many words for this new year...patience, acceptance, openness, willingness..but i love just the simple word of "yes". i live in a neighborhood where kids are coming in and out of our door constantly. and we actually had a little boy who lived right across the street from us come over almost always when it wasn't a good time. and sadly enough he moved away and i still think about the opportunities God was giving us to minister to him a little about the meaning of family. so glad you listened with your ears and heart. you never know when you won't get the opportunity again. thanks always for being so honest and sharing these important life lessons.

    amanda

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  9. Love this post with the story and the canvas painted word. : )
    That sweet little girl you said yes to will always remember you. You may not know it now, but you saying yes, that simple little word ....obeying God's call will make such an impact in her life.

    I have been thinking of a word ever since you mentioned this last week and I have resolved to be more "spirit filled" in 2012. Hmm, can I pick that word...is it a hyphenated word or is it two words? LOL, I just want to be filled with the WORD this year and FILL others too. So, hyphenated or not, that's my word. : )

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  10. girl you can WRITE...that should be your word! love your heart...love you! yes indeed:)

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  11. GROW is my word for 2012. I have so many areas of my life that need growth. Love your post!

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  12. My word this year is "peace". I tend to allow other people's moods and expectations affect my mood too much which in turn affects my whole household. I have decided to trust in my inner guide to know when to turn off the outer stresses and create a peaceful life.

    http://www.ordinarymom.ca/create/index.php/2011/12/a-new-year-resolutions-and-reflections/

    Love the canvas! So cute!

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  13. Acceptance is my word for 2012. With the passing of my mom in October, I have had to learn acceptance and believe that what happens is God's will. I now worry for my dad's health and know that the day will come, sooner than later, when God will call my daddy Home too. So ACCEPTANCE is what I will work on this year and trust in Gods plan.
    I wish you the happiest of New Years to you and your family and may this year, Yes roll right off of your tongue easily.
    God Bless
    Debbie

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  14. What a beautiful post and reminder to all of us to say Yes to God. My word is Believe. I need to remember the principles from Beth Moore's Bleieving God study. 2011 was a very hard year for us too and it's wonderful to have a new beginning to fan the flame of believing God. May you be blessed with many yeses this year!

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  15. I love your word "Yes" and feel like I said that so much this past year. I guess that can become a problem too?! I am feeling a little overwhelmed with so many things going into 2012 so my word for this year is going to be "NO". I can't do it all and I need to be aware of that and cutting back so I can accomplish some things that need my time. The Lord, my family and projects that are stacking up. Thank you for your heart and for the reminder.

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  16. I am not a big commenter, but a daily reader... this is one of my favorite posts. I need to say YES too. I am still deciding on my word but I know you and your family will be blessed this year because of you saying YES.

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  17. YES is a fantastic word for 2012! yes to all that Papa has for us.

    God hasn't given me my word yet...but He is whittling it down for sure :-) hopefully i'll have it up later this week!

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  18. last year it was HOPE and this year I don't know yet...which is KILLING me.

    I've got a couple of ideas but HE hasn't confirmed it, so I'll just wait. impatiently.

    love your word and love that HE gave it to you.

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  19. What a beautiful post! And YES is a perfect word for 2012.

    My word hasn't been given to me yet, but He is swirling a few my way to whittle down.

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  20. a precious story. you're such a gifted writer! i'm glad you shared your word & the reasons why. mine for 2012 is BROTHERLY KINDNESS (phileo love). God put the idea in me several years ago via a friend to have an annual spiritual focus & then opened my eyes w/ new clarity to 2 peter 1:3-8 (He's given us every thing we need... add to yourself faith, to your faith goodness, & so on). there is a list of eight virtues that He promises will help us be effective & productive servants for Him. i started w/ faith, & now i'm on brotherly kindness. i can't put into words how much He's transformed me each year so faithfully. He is so good. i can't say i'm looking forward to this year's focus b/c it's so hard to practice in the daily grind! but i'm looking forward to yet another year of growing closer to Him & more like Him. blessings to you for the coming year!!!!

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  21. This will sound awful, but my word is "NO" :)

    I am a bit of a people-pleaser so I find myself when asked for assistance, help, support, childcare, etc etc anything...I immediately say "YES!" and than later kick myself and think, "Shoot. I shouldn't have agreed to that so quickly." Often times, jumping in and saying, "Yes, I'll do it!" winds up coinciding with say one of my Hubby's days off...or just fills up my own plate that I than find myself overtired from giving to other's that I'm not able to be the wife/mom that I want to be. The very people that I chose to stay home full-time to care for.

    Perhaps, a more glamorous word could have been chosen...because certainly I am not shutting myself off to helping others...but I am going to put very sincere thought into things before just jumping into things.

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  22. My word is: choose
    Through a series of soul-crushing circumstances, I have learned that I cannot change others and I cannot control most circumstances, however, I will always have the right to choose how I respond to them. 
    And if I choose Truth, I am saying "yes" to an amazing God. And if I choose bitterness, or anger, or impatience, I must also accept that I am saying "yes" to the ugliness that travels with them.

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  23. My word is Emmanuel, God with us. I am going to meditate on this word and remember what it means. If I get that down everything else will fall into place. Happy New Year!

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  24. A great piece of writing....you are gifted. Thanks for inspiring!

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  25. Brilliant post, Sasha.
    My phrase for this year is "intentional simplicity".

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  26. love the word for the year idea and i love the word you chose. i've gotta think about mine for a bit. happy new year!

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  27. My word for this year is the exact opposite of yours, but oddly enough, for the same reasons--in order to make more room in my heart for the things God asks of me. I need to learn how to gracefully, guilelessly, and happily say "no" and to genuinely be content with the times when I want to say "yes" but know it would be an over extention.

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  28. Oh, and by the way. I found your blog this year and am so thankful for your sharing. I look forward to starting the new year with you!

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  29. GREAT POST! Really great! I dont really have a "word", but I picked a story out of the bible to follow, maybe I should pick a word out of that story??
    I am picking a new story each month to work the message behind it into my day to day and life...maybe there will be a theme in them and I can pull a word...oo this is fun! Thanks so much for sharing! As always, love your pics!

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  30. Yes that's fantastic! My word is Do, go ahead and do it.

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  31. what a wonderful post, Sasha. So glad to be catching up with you after my time away. :) Always such a beautiful thing, your blog...

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  32. this makes me think of a song...not sure of the title, but it goes like this:
    "yes, Lord, yes
    to your will and to your way,
    i say yes, Lord, yes
    i will trust You and obey
    when your spirit speaks to me
    with my whole heart i'll agree
    and my answer will be yes, Lord, yes!"

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  33. There is so much beauty and truth in your words. Thanks for sharing your heart. Happy "yes" year!

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  34. Just catching up on all the posts I've missed. My word needs t be something to do with action. I tend to wait until all the stars align and I know I can complete my project perfectly but I need to just do things. Stop evaluating, stop procrastinating, stop preparing, just go ahead and start. I just don't know what the word for that is. Maybe I should evaluate it..... lol

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  35. I don't have a word, but a phrase which is just move. Several meanings to this which is to get myself healthy, but play more with my children. Anyway, I want you to know I was that 8 year old and because of mothers like you who said yes I know God's gospel. I am not that mother that said yes and because my example my mother at the age of sixty came closer to God. So keep saying yes because that little girl needs you.

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  36. My word is trust...trust in God...trust in myself...

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  37. Just found your site today, read this story and cried. Thank you for loving on this little girl. It will impact her life in ways you may never know. We have been doing foster care for about 8 years and are in process of our 5th adoption. My heart aches for these broken hearted kids. Thanks for being a safe place for this precious child of God.

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  38. Just found your site today, read this story and cried. Thank you for loving on this little girl. It will impact her life in ways you may never know. We have been doing foster care for about 8 years and are in process of our 5th adoption. My heart aches for these broken hearted kids. Thanks for being a safe place for this precious child of God.

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