I have no idea what happened this weekend... but all craziness has broken loose in my little world. Everything that wasn't nailed down is moving, and things that were once nailed down, aren't anymore. My head is reeling. I lay awake at night, chewing on every angle and possibility for our life's direction, getting no where, but clinging to the promise that when you ask for wisdom, the God who gives generously to ALL, without finding fault, will offer it to you. (James 1)
needed to stay put, have Adrain commute, not sell our home, and take the house off the market and quit moving forward in that hope. Circumstances had taken a serious turn toward the unstable over the course of the month, and we began to feel more and more, like the best thing for every potential possibility was to do nothing.
No sooner had we made that "firm" decision, when everything changed. And then the next hour, it changed again. And then something totally unrelated dropped into our lap and changed those things. And then something that we figured couldn't reasonably be even remotely considered morphed into a different thing, leaving us confused about everything up to that point! And then as if that wasn't enough to process, a really big thing changed again, setting off a series of domino-like changes that will most likely affect our family's path once again, possibly temporarily... or permanently... it's all a little unclear. Ha!
It feels a little bit like we've been on a roller coaster ride. We've been clutching the metal bar in front of our face, praying the seat belt holds, our cheeks squishing backward, toward our skulls. Screaming through our teeth, then lurching to a sudden stop after a wild ride that went on for what seemed like forever. We've had just enough time to catch our breath, all the while, feeling the rumbling of the engines beneath our feet. We feel acutely aware that it's about to take off even faster than it was moving before, and suspecting an upside-down loop up ahead.
Oh if only I could tell you... you'd all be dying. And laughing. And questioning. And wondering, right alongside me!! I'm physically battling some nasty chest/head bug right now, but I haven't felt this alive in hope/faith/joyfully confused expectations for at least a year and a half. The circumstances are making absolutely no sense... and everything we thought would happen probably won't. Yet here we are! Riding this thing. This week might bring some answers... or changes... or nothing. But the possibilities are endless and it's kind of exciting.
words of wisdom?
Thanks for hanging in there with us... we sure love you guys!