Sunday, February 12, 2012

Riding this thing, and a few weekend snapshots

I have no idea what happened this weekend... but all craziness has broken loose in my little world.  Everything that wasn't nailed down is moving, and things that were once nailed down, aren't anymore.  My head is reeling.  I lay awake at night, chewing on every angle and possibility for our life's direction, getting no where, but clinging to the promise that when you ask for wisdom, the God who gives generously to ALL, without finding fault, will offer it to you.  (James 1)
  Last week, I was at the point of whole heartedly "done." We had almost unanimously agreed as a family, that we needed to stay put, have Adrain commute, not sell our home, and take the house off the market and quit moving forward in that hope.  Circumstances had taken a serious turn toward the unstable over the course of the month, and we began to feel more and more, like the best thing for every potential possibility was to do nothing.


No sooner had we made that "firm" decision, when everything changed.  And then the next hour, it changed again.  And then something totally unrelated dropped into our lap and changed those things.  And then something that we figured couldn't reasonably be even remotely considered morphed into a different thing, leaving us confused about everything up to that point!  And then as if that wasn't enough to process, a really big thing changed again, setting off a series of domino-like changes that will most likely affect our family's path once again, possibly temporarily... or permanently... it's all a little unclear.  Ha!

It feels a little bit like we've been on a roller coaster ride.  We've been clutching the metal bar in front of our face, praying the seat belt holds, our cheeks squishing backward, toward our skulls.  Screaming through our teeth, then lurching to a sudden stop after a wild ride that went on for what seemed like forever.  We've had just enough time to catch our breath, all the while, feeling the rumbling of the engines beneath our feet.  We feel acutely aware that it's about to take off even faster than it was moving before, and suspecting an upside-down loop up ahead.

Oh if only I could tell you... you'd all be dying.  And laughing.  And questioning.  And wondering, right alongside me!!  I'm physically battling some nasty chest/head bug right now, but I haven't felt this alive in hope/faith/joyfully confused expectations for at least a year and a half.  The circumstances are making absolutely no sense... and everything we thought would happen probably won't.  Yet here we are!  Riding this thing.  This week might bring some answers... or changes... or nothing.  But the possibilities are endless and it's kind of exciting.


 
 Have you guys ever felt like this?  Any words of wisdom? 

Thanks for hanging in there with us... we sure love  you guys!



24 comments:

  1. This makes me smile, only because we've been to that amusement park! As for advice, all I can say (since you already have God as your safety bar) is hang on and say "Wheeee!" Oh, and I agree with your pics...a little chocolate and Twilight helps too (which by the way you totally got me hooked on!!)

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  2. Wow, I have no idea what you're talking about, and yet I TOTALLY DO! The best advice I can give is to ride it out, and let the Lord lead. He has your very best interests at heart.

    Isaiah 41:10 ~ So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

    God Bless! ~Sally

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  3. God has a way of doing that, taking you some place you never imagined, he is amazing but know that you are in God's hands, and all you have to do is trust that he has you covered and is working to bless you in an unfathomable way.
    I love your blog and pictures!

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  4. Holy Moly, I'm exhausted from just reading this! It sounds as though you're doing everything possibele and your faith WILL hold you firm on this ride. Prayers for you and your family are on their way.

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  5. Wow, we moved three times in a year and a half, so I kind of feel like I can understand a little of what you are going through, but I've got to tell you a little nervous twitch just fluttered in my eye lid. I'm wishing you clarity and wisdom and just thinking of all the times I got to the end of the ride and wished I had enjoyed the ride more instead of wishing it would end.

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  6. The only thing I can offer to let go of all control. I have found when I obsess over things and wonder and ponder and question every whisper, the actual reality of what occurs comes in a clear voice. Loud enough. Every time.

    I have learned to just enjoy in the uncertainty knowing that something will change and that we will know clearly when it is time to do it.

    Good luck!

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  7. just sit and enjoy the ride, sister :)

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  8. Pray is all I can say. Heavenly Father loves you and are waiting for you and your husband to bring it to him. He will tell you what you need to do. Whether it be to move or stay put you will know by listening to that small still voice. The lord does not scream, so it is up to you to listen. Last year we were in a similar situation in regards to moving. We found out we were pregnant with baby number 4 and this was going to make our house too small. However, it did not make sense to move since the market stinks. Then one night it came to both of us we needed to move, and to make sure we were doing the right thing we prayed about it. The answer we got was yes. We found another house rather quickly and everything fell into place. They would not wait for us to sell our old house, so we cashed in our stocks and bought the house. It took us 9 months to sell the old house. We lost a ton of money. At times we questioned whether or not we did the right thing. In the end, we know we did the right thing the lord gave us our answer and we are really happy in our new home.

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  9. you have mastered the cliffhanger-ha! totally curious now! all the best and God's blessing no matter what happens babe!

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  10. Sit back, relax, and enjoy the ride (as much as you can): )

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  11. I agree with Cristi's comment AND must add-Put your hands in the air(like you are praising God) AND ride this ride out! Be happy, have fun, live life where you are BUT be ready at ANY moment for it to change. Cause it will, it always does in God's time.

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  12. Been there, and the thrill of the ride pales in comparison to the perspective looking back, and seeing how God orchestrated it all in ways greater than we could imagine Love hearing that so many things are potentially going on for you, and can't wait to hear what is in store!

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  13. continue to trust him even in the midst of not knowing.
    believe his word and claim it DAILY.

    he has plans for you..plans to prosper you and not to harm you....

    the enemy is so sly and often comes in during these times and tempts us ever so cleverly into questioning God's goodness and his love for us.

    be on guard....and pray without ceasing.

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  14. It sounds like you're going through an exciting time! Hold on and have fun! I wish you the best of luck in everything that happens.

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  15. We are so right there with you! Isaiah 65:24

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  16. Sometimes trying too hard to control everything and change your circumstances brings you back around. And you are left asking god..what now? The path is so unclear. I'm in that place myself. My words of wisdom..(like Daisy said)..Let go and let God. and be in your moment. All the obssessing and worrying robs you of today. Good luck to you and you are in my prayers! xoxo

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  17. You've gotten some great advice and all I can say is DITTO. When my life takes turns and twists and DROPS....I always pull in and simplify my daily routine as much as possible so I don't ADD any craziness. Take time to be quiet as much as possible so you can all re-center and find PEACE in the storm.....Big hugs from far away!!
    Lorraine

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  18. Sounds like an exciting time for your family and God. :) I know He will bring answers, clarity, and peace.....not necessarily in that order! He is forever faithful... and that is sometimes my only hope in this constant whirlwind of life! Your photos are beautiful by the way- I love the simplicity of them :)

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  19. Been there done that in the last year with some circumstances. At times it felt hopeless but God provided exactly what we needed when we needed it. We trusted Him and now we are listing our "plunder." I don't know what your circumstances are but know that God is trying to accomplish something in you that He knows can only be accomplished through this trial. :)

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  20. I certainly do know what you are talking about. My husbands job has us move every three to four years...but lately it's been five every where we go. We went being hopeful about getting a position near family once again to that totally falling beside the wayside to moving in the total other direction of our extended family and then.....on top of it all we had thirty days to sell our current house and find a new one and actually move. LOL, yep, I know what you are talking about. It's a craaazzzy ride for sure, but God was directing it all so we were okay with it. Let him drive Sasha and if it's His will every thing will fall into place.
    ((((Hugs to you))))

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  21. Jesus take the wheel!!! Our God is such an awesome God and it reminds me that perhaps we don't remember enough just how BIG our GOD is!!! :)

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  22. Just remember that God is in your boat and all you have to do is have faith. Matthew 8:23-27 It will all work out, you will be in my prayers.
    -Tamara

    I mentioned you in a post! If you want to check it out :)
    http://climbingthelatter.blogspot.com/2012/02/i-finally-did-it.html

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