Thursday, May 31, 2012

May 365

 Dear Diary,
Today I splurged.  I was sent to get my mother's day gift.  And I came home with it, but I also grabbed this super soft bath rug.  I wanted it for my kitchen sink area.  I don't know why every rug I've ever purchased for this area before has been un-machine-washable, but that's just stupid.  So when I saw this bath rug at Target, I latched on to it for my kitchen.  Cause who says a bath rug can't work perfectly fine for a kitchen?  And it's already been spilled on and washed once so far.  I'm happy.  Everything in life needs to be machine washable as far as I'm concerned. 
 Dear Diary,
My nieces are so cute. (This is one of them.)
 Dear Diary,
Grocery, Costco, and Errands, Oh My!  Then I got home and sat down to this stack of reading material.  I call it "job research." 
 Dear Diary,
I love my hoodlums. 
 Dear Diary,
I love my man.  I love that his signature drink is an Arnold Palmer. (Half lemonade, half iced tea.) I had this amazing iced tea, while sitting in a pool of warm sunshine, great conversation, plenty of laughter, and basking in the company of friends and my husband after our marriage retreat.  Then they talked me into playing horseshoes and well... I suck. 
 Dear Diary,
The smell of freshly mowed grass wafting through the windows sure makes it feel like summer.  Ava was sick all day, running a fever, but she wanted watermelon, so I made a special trip for it.  I hate it when my babies don't feel good.
Dear Diary,
In case you didn't know this... the best place to be when you have an awful sore throat and runny nose, is in your jammies, laying on a beach towel, in the back yard.  I slathered her with sunscreen and let her just nap in the grass.  It would have been the cutest thing if she hadn't been so sick. (Okay it was still pretty cute.) I sat in a chair nearby to keep watch on her and got to finish Insurgent.  Not a bad sick day, all things considered and she is perking up, now that the day is done.
Dear Diary,
Today I had my second round of physical therapy for my back/hip/joint issues.  I'm not sure I'm totally digging it yet. I also discovered that I don't like strange peoples hands massaging my rear.  Huh.  I'm just sayin.' 
Dear Diary,
Projects complete me. There will always be one in the recesses of my mind.. always.
Dear Diary,
This boy makes me want to pull out all my hair in exasperation and then five minutes later, kiss his little face til he squeals.  I think that's a mother's love.
Dear Diary, (**Warning, the next several days ahead are tough ones.  I make no apologies, it's just real life.)
This was one of those days you wish you could have skipped. Motherhood is not for the faint of heart, I'll tell you that, and there are always surprise phone calls that make your heart sink to your stomach, and then cause you to cry your eyes out once you've said good night to your babies.  Days that make you question if you're doing anything right.  Days that make you sure you're not. Days you're so embarrassed for choices others make you wish you could crawl under a rock.  Days you can't tell anyone the details... but days you have to face.
Dear Diary,
The truth is that JJ and I are pretty much faking our smiles here. You can kind of tell.
Dear Diary,
Mother's day.  My heart was so heavy as we anticipated dealing with school/kid issues and waiting for my man to do a job interview for a position in his company that he really wanted. 
Dear Diary,
My words at the end of this day, "Well... we made it."  Principal/parent meeting that I survived.  Waiting for answers to other things that I survived.  Anticipating Adrain's job interview that we survived... and through it all, my hub area (my desk) was the only thing I could come up with to photograph for y'all.  Real life.  Amen.
Dear Diary,
Suspended and doing chores for me.  Will I survive motherhood?  Cause yeah... I'm not really sure today. 
Dear Diary,
Summer please come soon.
Dear Diary,
The longest six days of my life have finally passed, and my boy goes back to school tomorrow.  I think we've spent those days with near non-stop, intense, talking... training...instructing...correcting... teaching... and talking some more.  I'm mentally exhausted.  My man also found out he didn't get the new position in his company today.  That means a lot of different things for us.  Thankful he has a job currently.... and thankful that this week is winding down.  Praying it's a good weekend.  We sure could use one!
 Dear Diary,
Friday night relaxing with my man. Uh-huh.
 Dear Diary,
A day well spent.  Kiddos helping, neighbors out visiting, getting the yard pretty, BBQing with one of my sis-in-laws and her kids.  Just a really good day. Thank you GOD!
Dear Diary,
Family bike ride day!  (And do you also ride your bike in a fur vest like my daughter tried to do?)  Oh such a great day today.  We have really pulled together through the past week's frustrations, trials and tears.  Family is the most important thing and these three people I share my life with each day are more important to me than anything on this earth. 
 Dear Diary,
Today might have been the quickest day ever.  And yet...I have no idea what I got done today! I'm sure I did something noteworthy. 
Dear Diary,
I am so thankful for the funny moments, especially in seasons where we've had a lot of yucky ones.  I want to become a little old lady with plenty of laugh crinkles around my eyes, and I'm pretty sure my boy is going to push me in that direction.  (He'll also be held responsible for the many gray hairs on my head too, FYI.)
Dear Diary,
What is it, about a good walk between friends that makes it feel like you've solved world problems?  I love all the different girlfriends I'm able to squeeze in walks with.  They challenge me, encourage me, share with me, and we always part with hugs and plans to "do it again as soon as possible."  So thankful for that... so blessed with my many sweet friends.
Dear Diary,
Today was one of those days with many small children (many of which didn't belong directly to me) who were in and out of my house and backyard between the hours of school dismissal and dinner time.  Many little faces asking for drinks, or what I was doing (icing cupcakes always draws a crowd) and asking to water my flowers for me, etc.  I love being the mama hen to all these children. 
 Dear Diary,
There is nothing quite like good friends.  There is also nothing quite like my daughter behind a Nerf Volcan.  Scary.  And funny. 
 Dear Diary,
My yard is littered with boards and screws and my boys are working on a potting/outdoor entertaining bench.  I can hardly wait til it's done. 
 Dear Diary,
I love this sweet baby girl and that we got to spend a day with her family. How is it possible for a four-month old that doesn't even belong to me to have me completely wrapped around her finger?  And guess what?  She got my blue eyes!!  Everyone in my family has brown or green eyes.  But I was a freak with blue... and my daughter and little niece got them too.  That pleases me for some unexplainable reason. 
Dear Diary,
Poor Ava wasn't feeling very good all weekend.   Plus I think she was plumb worn out from sleeping on a trampoline two nights ago, and a cough that keeps hanging on week after week.  Bless her heart, she just kept falling asleep in random places all weekend.
 Dear Diary,
My friend Trudy raved about this fresh produce club called Dandelion Organic.  I was so excited that I joined up and they delivered my produce bin today!  There is nothing like home delivery.  It was a little bit like Christmas for all of us as we dug through it all to find fresh, organic, and mostly local peaches, pears, oranges, mint, green onions, carrots, spinach, lettuce, cantaloupe, brocolette, cauliflower, tomatoes, summer squash and grapefruit.  I am trying to see if this keeps me from as many grocery store runs (since most of them are for produce anyway and I walk out with ten other items) and spending as much because of that.  I figured we'd try it out for a month, crunch the numbers and see what's what.   In the mean-time, we'll enjoy a weekly supply of yummy!  I'm so excited about this! 
Dear Diary,
I had an absolutely lovely day today from start to finish.  It included a bunch of my favorite peeps either in person or on the phone.  I even got all of my to do list crossed off in spite of my own wandering, distracted self.  (And fresh spinach and mixed greens salad for dinner, topped with shrimp, grapefruit, blue cheese crumbles, tomatoes, and green goddess dressing. Mmmm!)
Dear Diary,
The weather is conspiring against me.  I'm convinced of it.  Every single grocery/Costco/Trader Joe's shopping day is a rainy day.  Anyway I have devised a cunning plan.  I did our "stock-up" shop today and came home, unpacked it, and hid half of what I bought.  Out of sight of hoodlums, out of mind? Between this and my new weekly produce delivery, we'll see.  Older moms keep telling me this is a necessity if you want food to last for more than a weekend.  I feel a little bit like doing the evil laugh.  Muwahahahahaahaa!

And that's it for May friends.  I was going to do a Linky party... but alas I ran out of time and didn't know how and wasn't sure anyone would link up, so I didn't do it!  How's that for excuses?  

How was your month??


35 comments:

  1. Holding you and your yucky days in prayer! They do make those good ones oh-so-much-better.

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  2. I love your blog. Your photos make me so happy, and I love the things that you share... mostly real life. But that's not why I'm really commenting.

    I wanted you to know that YES, you will survive this "situation" with your son. We had a situation last spring with our son... something that we were blindsided by... something that another parent (bravely) filled us in on. We were dumbfounded. Not our kid! ...but yes, our kid. There were only a limited few people involved that knew what was going on, and that was too many. I felt imprisoned by the situation. But now... I realize that even though the revelation was horrible in our non-event family, it was needed, so that we could deal w/ the problem. And, we all survived. You know what they say? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Well, look - you're still here, so what does that mean? YOU WILL SURVIVE. Keep on keeping on. Know that others (like me) are praying for you! The reason it is so devastating for you is that you care so much -- and that's a good place to be. For you AND your son! {HUGS}

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    1. I am almost in tears reading your encouraging words Sally! That was like the Mama hug I have needed all month long! Thank you for sharing what you did and for loving on me with your kind words. There's some song out there with those words, "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and I find myself singing it all the time lately. Haha! Thank you for the prayers and the encouragement. Thank you thank you!!

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    2. Sally Wally is and forever more shall be the bomb diggity.

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    3. Oh girls, I just checked back and read your sweet thoughts. I have such great "life cheerleaders" as I like to call them. If I can encourage just one, then I have passed along the gift. We each have been blessed with our own unique circumstances in parenting, and I have been most encouraged by friends who are transparent about the struggles. It makes me realize that our family is not alone in the "battle" -- and yes, it DOES seem like a battle sometimes, doesn't it? But the LORD is good ALL the time, and will give us JUST what we need when HE thinks we need it. So much of parenting is really SURRENDER -- of course, that's true with anything that's "difficult" in our lives.

      Be blessed today! Love and hugs to you BOTH! ~Sally

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  3. Motherhood is not for the faint of heart! I'm glad you got through the ups and down that May brought you. You have the most beautiful, white teeth! Do you use something to get them that white? If so, please share!

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    1. This comment is cracking me up. Yes I use Crest Whitestrips about once a year. I was actually just thinking it's about time to freshen them up again- I like them sparklingly white! LOL (I also don't drink coffee, or red wine and those things that stain them too.)

      Thanks for the smile.

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  4. i love, love, love that you were honest and real. i have one of those boys too. you love and are frustrated/in tears with from one moment to the next. blessings friend.

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  5. What a journey this month has been for you! And I feel you, this month has been a journey for us too, but just a different kind. Hope this next month is smoother for you and that you are filled with peace!

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  6. Bless your heart! Oh, the days that make you want to pull your hair out. I know we have many more to face, but at least it's one behind us, right? Take these good days and remember them during the bad. It'll lift you up a little but more.

    The rug is too cute!

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  7. Your blog is so refreshing, even with your down times-like sick kiddos and not-so-great days. Thank you for sharing your reality. By the way, your lipstick in these photos is just beautiful! Do you mind sharing the brand and color?

    Thank you.
    Andrea

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    1. Andrea, I'm honestly not sure which one I was wearing but it would have been one or a combo of the following. (I just went and pulled them out of my make up case for you.)

      Burt's Bees tinted lip balm in "Red Dahlia"
      Loreal infallible lip gloss in "Bloom" #125
      Loreal infallible lip gloss in "Plumped Mauve." #506

      :)

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    2. Thank you for going out of your way for me. :)

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  8. what a full, precious, beautiful life! and i am guessing adrain didn't love random people touching your hiney either?? ; ) i want those books! that produce bin looks amazing. i love you, your pictures, your family. the end.

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  9. I love all the beautiful pictures of REAL LIFE!!! I love how open and honest you are !!!! Honey I'm praying for you ALL the way here in Florida!!!!

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  10. I really dig you and your real life. And you rock those braids like no body's bidness.

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  11. It's so refreashing when people are "real" about what's going on in their lives. I've read your blog for so long and I've always admired that about you!! I'll be praying for you and your "situation". I have to tell myself everyday that this is a season of life and it will pass. I also DAILY pray for wisdom (James 1:5) to help me through this thing called motherhood...and my kids are 2 1/2 and 6 months!!!!!

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  12. I love reading your 365 posts! Thanks for sharing and for being real. It's my goal to work up to taking a picture a day, so I'd like to link up if you start that. Just remind us a few days in advance! Thanks for the inspiration!

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  13. I always enjoy your 365 posts. Today, I just got a new camera in the mail. I am feeling inspired to do my own little 365 project....Do you keep a little journal and pick each day's picture for these as you go through the month? I am trying to figure out the easiest, most organized way to pull this together! I would definitely link up with you if you can get it figured out!

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  14. i say this every month: these are my favorite posts ever! lovelovelove them. i had so much to say about this post, now i can't remember any of it. except we had that same giant nerf gun...it is pretty freaky i have to day.
    you had a tough month, sister. praying june blows it up for ya.

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  15. My favorite posts too. Love May 7th. You are a doll. Uh huh;)

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  16. Thanks for sharing your life. The trials we go through with kids hopefully give us wisdom and make us stronger. We just figured out our 16 year old has been on FB the whole school year and put our names in two different ways to block us from finding her. We may be slow but we're not stupid. I always pray that if she's doing anything wrong she will get caught for her own protection and learning experience. Love your kitchen rug, the sweet babies in your life and your faith!

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  17. It's time for 365! It's time for 365! ;0) I SO look forward to these posts. Glad you got through the tough times and had time for some fun. Hope Ava stays strong...

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  18. I, too, have had a "May 11th" and I feel your pain. I think it was the shock and surprise that shook me the most... that whole, "No, this can't be my kid you're talking about..?!" feeling. Oh my, yes it was! Lots of desperation, humility and mourning for my expectations... And wondering if things would ever be "normal" again. So grateful for the Lord and his mercies being new every morning, because I know that's all that got me through those days. It helped me to realize that Jesus was not surprised at the situation like I was, that He was not rocked like I was, and that even in that "thing" He was right there with my precious son, working out His grace and redemption. {Although I did ask Him more than once why did He think this particular path was the right way to grace and redeption for my kid and my family?! ; )} Thank you for sharing and for being transparent. Know you are not alone. My family continues to heal and I am grateful for my 13 year old who also has increased my gray hair {and my laugh lines} a thousand fold! Praying for you and your sweet family.

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  19. They say motherhood isn't for wimps. Or sissies. And some days (OK, weeks!) sure remind you of that, don't they? Glad things settled down for you. Just remind yourself that "this, too, shall pass" and remember to breathe. Part of what I enjoy most about your blog is that you keep things real! Here's to a great weekend...and a lovely week to come.

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  20. I adore your 365 posts- you actually inspired me to do my own this year! (Although for some reason my photos aren't uploading correctly for May!!!) and I feel your love/pain for your boy as I too have one that causes gray hair and laugh lines at the same time! And- sidebar- did you LoVE Insurgent?!?! I can't wait for the third one!!!
    Come see what we're up to at...
    www.MustardSeedsOk.blogspot.com

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  21. LOVE your sweet life, and even more- your honesty. Even though every day isn't sunshine and roses, you choose to love the life God has given you, and share the good and bad, to be real and encourage others.

    I can identify with the heart dropping phone call, and all those emotions that follow, and will pray you will continue to find peace and assurance through this parenting thing. I truly never realized how strong God made Mommas until I had an almost teenager. Love your genuineness, and am so grateful you share. It helps us all to realize we are not alone.

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  22. Love this post. Thanks for allowing your photos to portray "real life". Your genuine heart is amazing. I love that you intentionally love life even through the major ups and downs. I know God must have something huge in store for your sweet family! Thanks for sharing life with us :)

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  24. Boy, I though MY May was exhausting! Glad you survived and shared...it is nice to know others share in our Mama frustrations as well as joys. Happy June, Sasha!

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  25. i'm late posting a comment. (i don't always get to read you daily) i hope you are encouraged by all these comments, dear one! you are in the 'throws' of it right now. God bless you for your courage and your never-give-up-ness! i LOVE love LOVE reading your blog. i shouldn't even be taking the time right now but i'm addicted! and i LOVE your house and wish you could come help me w/ mine! if you ever want to escape the rain, and come to my side of the state....we'll set you up! your kids are precious and i LOVE your mama's heart in sharing them! it's so apparent your love for them! => katie

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