You guys are awesome... and always up for that aren't ya? Today my man had the day off so he could celebrate Columbus with me even though our kids were in school. We went for a run and ended with a walk and some deep discussion. I love that! We are still hoping for/considering a job opportunity with my man's company in Ohio... a different one from the other day... but honestly a much better fit for the whole entire family, in my opinion. (Also just outside of Cleveland which was freaking me out just a little. I'm a small town girl, so those of you in Canton give me a shout out!)
full of questions, hope, excitement, fear, and did I mention questions? Cause yeah... I have a lot of questions. It's been three years of roller coaster emotions with my man and his employment/hopeful employment situation. I'll gloss over that part for today's post.
But... I want to talk about it!!! I do!
get excited over the doors that appear to be opening right in front of our faces, and not worry about "getting my hopes up" yet again. (If I can pick myself up after selling my house and then having the buyer back out because she thought she won the publisher's clearing house sweepstakes days before our move... I think I can handle hope dashing. Maybe.)
And we pray. And pray. And pray. And honestly... we do get excited. A change has been in the wind for ages and just what if... what if... what if this one is actually "the one?"
"I've prayed for this one thing for years, and it hasn't happened. The Bible says all things are possible for those who believe. What's wrong with my faith?"
"Some days it's easy for me to trust the Lord. Other days, no matter how hard I try, I don't feel confident that God cares or will help me. Or I forget God, go my own way and try to run my own life. How can my faith be more consistent?"
"All the indicators say that I don't have a chance at getting this job. But I'm still praying that I get it. Won't the Lord honor my faith?"
"I'm in a very unpleasant situation. Should I boldly pray that it changes? Or should I stick it out and trust God to bring good out of it? Which one is faith?"
actual existence of God. I will share that story with you all another day because, oh my word it was a story worth sharing. But back to faith... and my questions. I plan to dive right in to this tiny little study book... I want some answers.
How about you guys. Anything you're almost afraid to get your hopes up about? Anything rocked your faith lately... do you feel like you've been in a period of sifting? Do you need answers?
I'm going on this journey with all my heart no matter where it ends up taking me.
You're welcome to join me.