Thursday, January 24, 2013


I'm always surprised... though I really shouldn't be by now.  I hit the lowest of places and then a fresh new day dawns, full of promise and hope.  It occurred to me, (and many of you have encouraged me with this) that someday I will look backward.  And when I do, things that are bogging me down this very day, will have evened out.  They will have had purposes.  They will have come together and completed a picture.  I will look back. There will be meaning and answers and direction I couldn't see while in the midst of the maze. 
It hit me afresh. 

I actually apologized to God.  I was sitting on the couch, nothing major taking place, when this thought thumped me upside my head-  Someday... when it all makes sense in hindsight... and He's come through for me... been faithful... I'm going to feel like an idiot for all the crying, doubting and thinking that He went on vacation, instead of overseeing all the big and small details of my little ol' life. 

I am. 

That thought made me feel so good, you guys.  I wasn't sure how long that peace would last but I made a mental note to remember that for one bitty little second, I had it!  It was right there within my grasp.  I don't know if it was all of your prayers, your emails, your comments, your encouragement, your personal stories, your links to uplifting songs... or maybe it was all of it, but I felt lifted up.  I so appreciate being able to be real (as real as possible on a computer screen) and share my heart with you.  But... I really do hate to be a whiner.  And before you tell me I haven't been, trust me... I've been a really big whiner for way too long now.  I'm working on that.  I am counting my blessings, and that's a start.  Cause yeah... I'm gonna look back. 

I have so many friends waiting for something in their life to change. Sitting squarely in the middle of a place they didn't anticipate or want and they are begging God for a change.  Big things, little things and I know so many of you are right there too.  

Joyce Meyer says, "Sometimes we find ourselves in such horrible messes that it's hard to imagine waiting one more second. But we need to keep waiting on God and trusting Him with a sweet and simple faith. Then, in a way we never could've figured out—God moves suddenly!... Acts 16:25 & 26 say, "But about midnight, as Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns of praise to God, and the [other] prisoners were listening to them, suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the very foundations of the prison were shaken; and at once all the doors were opened and everyone's shackles were unfastened." God answered them suddenly!  When people patiently and expectantly wait on God in the midst of horrible circumstances, suddenly God breaks through.  So don't give up! Don’t stop believing! Stay full of hope and expectation. God's power is limitless, and He'll break through for you!" 

 How's that for encouragement?  Hang in there. Be steadfast and don't quit.  He hears us.  He sees. 


 P.S. I might have a slight obsession with blood oranges.  I plan on making many yummy, fruity things with them in the future.  (Or maybe I'm just vitamin C deficient.  Ha!)


  1. I love this. I am expectant right alongside you. :)

  2. aw! thanks for sharing again! thank you for everything you share..the good and the bad, its helps us know we aren't the only ones ya know?
    thank you for sharing what Joyce Meyer said and the verse :) I needed that!

  3. A good message for us all. Thanks Sasha!

  4. I just bought a bag of blood oranges, but I don't think I've ever had one. I've been addicted to those little clementines this winter....Are blood oranges great snacks like that too? Maybe I'll cut into one and find out thi afternoon!

    Thanks for these words. You are so right, one day we will all be able to look back. Looking back, we'll see what God was doing and what didn't actually matter as much as we were convinced that it did. Hopefully, the moments of peace keep us HOPING for that day! :)

  5. I would so love to package up this blog and give it out as gifts! :-)
    keep it real girl! whinning and all...somebody's gotta be the voice for those who can't get their words together to explain their silent or not so silent frustration in life...thus so many authors.

    awaiting your devotional or however you choose to package your book! :-)

  6. so good, mama.
    i am right there with you.

  7. another awesome post! Your postings are like getting my favorite magazine in the mail. I truly love them. Thanks for sharing your heart with us... and your cute Etsy stuff :) xo

  8. You know what I love??? I love that God knows that we need a time period to be whiner, and I think for a time that He's okay with that, because He knows that for some, we'll finally get to the end of the whine and know that He is there!! That we'll finally look through the tears and realize that He's been there all the time!! I love the message in Acts!!! Thank you for sharing that.....I really, really need to ponder and trust that!!!!

  9. So happy you have started to turn around it's a hard thing to do, waiting is such a hard thing to do but in the mean time those oranges are so pretty and tasty looking.
    Have a great day!

  10. I have followed your blog for awhile but rarely comment (I type comments but I have to try several times to post and I give up!). Your post today makes me think of 'being in the here and now' which is something I have been working on in my own life. I constantly remind myself that worrying about tomorrow doesn't help prepare me it just "robs me of today" and that as a woman of faith I have to trust that I will be OK. Reading about Mindfulness helped a lot with my anxiety and I thought I would share this since you share so much of yourself with us readers! I am so thankful for your blog! :)

  11. Thank you. I needed to hear this today.

  12. have you ever heard of Elisabeth Elliott? she has old podcasts you can google and listen to. there's one on contentment you should hear. it's very eye opening . check it out if you can.

  13. It is hard to sit and wait for life to ease up. For about 4 years it seemed we couldn't catch a break, everything about life was hard and stressful....then about 2 years ago things started going smoothly, we started seeing answers to prayers, life got easier and we became very, very grateful. Now I seem to sit in wait for the shoe to drop again, not get too comfortable in my bliss. Why must we always be worried...looking back everything worked itself out for good, why can't I just trust that anything else in life he throws at me will too.

    Praying for you all....

  14. So often, I read your postings and I feel like you are speaking directly to me. It is so encouraging to read your words and to feel not so lonely in the midst of life's hardships. And to be reminded that God is faithful through it all. Thanks for sharing!

  15. My Pastor said on Wed night that you always want to be around Christians who have been through seasons of faith. I have many seasons that I look back upon and see God's fingerprints all over it.I am thankful for the storms, more thankful that I knew Christ while in them.Oh,and Mama Joyce? She knows seasons of faith...

  16. It is totally true! Neal and I have had the privilege to look back this year on all God has done that we couldn't see at the time but when we turn around and look back it's just amazing!

  17. i always want to be the kind of friend that doesn't ever make another friend feel like they've whined too much or too long....we all go through battles...the best kind of friend loves you all the way through it.

    there's a difference in always being negative and never seeing the good and then going through a long season of waiting on God and having highs and lows.

    you're not a negative're a cheerleader for life. :) but, you're human...and your humanness makes you very approachable to the rest of us. :) I bet you have friends there who love you so much and feel so honored to walk through life with you...I know I would!