I actually apologized to God. I was sitting on the couch, nothing major taking place, when this thought thumped me upside my head- Someday... when it all makes sense in hindsight... and He's come through for me... been faithful... I'm going to feel like an idiot for all the crying, doubting and thinking that He went on vacation, instead of overseeing all the big and small details of my little ol' life.
I had it! It was right there within my grasp. I don't know if it was all of your prayers, your emails, your comments, your encouragement, your personal stories, your links to uplifting songs... or maybe it was all of it, but I felt lifted up. I so appreciate being able to be real (as real as possible on a computer screen) and share my heart with you. But... I really do hate to be a whiner. And before you tell me I haven't been, trust me... I've been a really big whiner for way too long now. I'm working on that. I am counting my blessings, and that's a start. Cause yeah... I'm gonna look back.
begging God for a change. Big things, little things and I know so many of you are right there too.
Joyce Meyer says, "Sometimes we find ourselves in such horrible messes that it's hard to imagine waiting one more second. But we need to keep waiting on God and trusting Him with a sweet and simple faith. Then, in a way we never could've figured out—God moves suddenly!... Acts 16:25 & 26 say, "But about midnight, as Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns of praise to God, and the [other] prisoners were listening to them, suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the very foundations of the prison were shaken; and at once all the doors were opened and everyone's shackles were unfastened." God answered them suddenly! When people patiently and expectantly wait on God in the midst of horrible circumstances, suddenly God breaks through. So don't give up! Don’t stop believing! Stay full of hope and expectation. God's power is limitless, and He'll break through for you!"
How's that for encouragement? Hang in there. Be steadfast and don't quit. He hears us. He sees.
P.S. I might have a slight obsession with blood oranges. I plan on making many yummy, fruity things with them in the future. (Or maybe I'm just vitamin C deficient. Ha!)