We had a rough winter- and when I say "we" I pretty much mean me. It was a hard one for sure- and if I'm being truly transparent, (which of course I am) I'll admit that it was the hardest one I've had to date. (Thank you for sticking it out with me.) I'm still very much doing the in-process work to pull myself out of that place, but things are looking up. When Adrain and I look back, we can admit that many things flipped upside down three years ago, when we made some life and mission decisions that we're still trying to navigate our way through. I have to be vague here, I'm sorry. (We're not giving up. We're just trying to figure it all out and whole-heartedly, and contentedly BE in the place God chooses for us to be whether here, or with an eventual job transfer, etc.)
Anyway, three years is an eternity in kid time. Adrain and I don't want to be so bogged down in life junk that we suddenly blink and our kids are leaving the nest, carrying a picture of us that has been colored by trials we didn't handle well. (And there are many that we haven't handled well. I hate that.) See? Convicting.
So... as Adrain and I grapple with those areas we have not handled well, and work to restore balance and such, we are trying our hardest to separate that heaviness from our family times. We're doing our best to laugh together more. And wander places. Get lost on occasion. Get found. Road trip locally. Say yes. Look at each car ride as an adventure. It's kind of hard.
I jokingly (but meant it) said to my kids, "Mama used to be really fun." How sad is that? Well, I reject that! I AM FUN dangit. Or at least I can be, anyway. So this weekend, we blew out of the house. We had some things we had to do, and things we had obligations to, but Adrain and I made time for just each other. We were exhausted from flu recovery and head colds hanging on etc, but we put that priority at the top and I'm so glad we did. Somehow we mustered up enough energy to leave home and find a bit of fun here and there.
But... have any of you ever felt like this in life? I know a lot of you that have older kiddos, or grown kids, and I'd love to know how you made it fun in spite of life heaviness, hormones, (theirs and yours) and pre-teen/teen drama etc.
Help! I appreciate every tid-bit of love and encouragement you care to leave in my comments box...