Monday, May 6, 2013

I'm just pretending to know what I'm doing.

This past weekend, as the sun shone brightly, my family was quietly grieving a sad loss.  Adrain and I kept the kiddos so busy with our yard work/campfire pit project that they wouldn't have time to think much about it.  Before we all dropped in exhaustion on Sunday night, and as the last rays of golden sunshine began sliding over the horizon, we grabbed my cute parents and dragged them down to the riverside for some photos.  I hadn't been able to decide what to give the two most amazing people in my life, who have spent forty years loving only each other.  And then one day it hit me, and I decided that we needed to commemorate their anniversary with some photos.
I feel so comfortable photographing things that don't breathe or move... but live people are another matter.  There was gorgeous (but intimidating) sun flare all over the place and I don't always know what to do with that.  (I want to be Paige or Carissa when I grow up so I can figure that sort of thing out.)  My parents were so cute and fun and my dad's goofy antics had me laughing so hard I couldn't keep the camera still at times. 

I didn't really know what I was doing for the most part, and kept whipping out my Pinterest file to tell them how to pose.  Then we'd laugh and I'd shoot a few more photos.  I was so relieved when they turned out cute!!
Life is like that for me.  Most of the time, I don't have a clue what I'm doing, and I stumble all over the place trying to make sense of it all.  I do this in parenting, relationships that have gone twisted, finances that don't make sense on paper, plans that aren't aligning... that sort of thing.  I stand inside the circle of mess and destruction sometimes and think, "If this works out, it's going to be nothing short of a miracle." And then... miraculously, it works itself out.  A little faith.  A little perseverance.  A little waiting.  And then suddenly it all shifts into place and I sigh in relief and cover that thing with prayers of thanksgiving.







  The verse in my bible reading today, was, (Psalm 37:23-24)  "The LORD makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand."  

And then guess what I did?

I dropped off the hoodlums and went for a run.

It was gorgeous and sun-shiney. As I was rounding out the end of mile three, about 200 yards from where my car was parked, I tripped as my toe grazed a chunk of sidewalk that was sticking out.  I stumbled like a drunken sailor for about five steps, my hands reaching out wildly to catch myself, and the two fragmented thoughts in my head at that moment were, "OH dear GOD please don't let me end up with teeth like a hockey player," and "Thank you God that though I may stumble, I will not fall, because You uphold me with Your hand!" 

I'm not kidding.

It's a wild ride inside my brain, folks. 

The point is this.  I don't have to know what I'm doing.  Because God does, and He's there to catch me.  And you.  I don't know about you, but I am so thankful for that.


And Happy Anniversary month to my Mama and Daddy (even though you're actual anniversary isn't for a few weeks.)  You've always been there for me during my many stumbles.

Thank you for showing me Who to turn to when I do. 






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22 comments:

LeAnne said...

You are so blessed to have both parents alive and well and they're still together because they want to be!

Angela said...

What a blessing to have parents that still love each other after all those years. Your photos are beautiful!

Joann said...

They are so cute:o)
You did a fabulous job!

Christina said...

Your pictures are fabulous...what adorable parents you have!

I'm sorry about your loss and grief...saying a prayer for you all, dear Sasha.

elizabeth said...

I really, really needed this post today! Thank you!

Kelly said...

Beautiful pictures. What a great gift for your parents! Was actually thinking of you Saturday, and praying for your kiddos and family.

Sally said...

Love the photos of your sweet parents! Thinking of you today... whatever your grieving... whatever your loss. Know that you are lifted up in prayer! xo ~Sally

Jeannie S said...

Thanks for sharing your beautiful photos of your sweet parents. You are truly blessed and yes God upholds us all day long whether we realize it or not. Thanks for the reminder.

Lorraine and Jessica said...

Now I know where you got your stinkin' cuteness from!!!! Your parents are precious!! I can see the love between them and you captured it perfectly!!!

Oh how I stumble some times, all the time!!! I'm so thankful that He catches me!!!!

Speaking of not knowing what I'm doing - I'm decorating a wedding in less than two weeks!!! TWO WEEKS!!! I'm freaking out!!!! But I'm also trying to rest assuredly in the One who guides my steps <3 Thank you for the reminder to trust Him!!!

Jensamom23 said...

You capyures your parents' love for each other perfectly! Happy anniversary to them.

Stacey said...

Such wisdom and such beautiful photos. Your parents are going to love those for years to come.

DebZorn said...

Your photos are wonderful. The light is perfect. I like the one of the holding hands the best - and "two shall become as one."

carissa @ lowercase letters said...

Such a testimony to have parents still together! Something to cherish, indeed! And look at these sweet pictures! You did a great job. Amen for His arms that catch us not if, but when we fall. Love you, friend!

Nate and Megan said...

Cute pictures! Congratulations, Uncle John and Aunt Brenda! Love you!

Christy @ MCH PHOTOGRAPHY said...

How cute, love the way they look at each other

Theresa Novak said...

your parents are so cute and those photos are so beautiful that I could cry.

Victoria said...

Love these pics and the love they represent!!! It looks like you all had fun! :)

Farmgirl Paints said...

They turned out great girl. I fly by the seat of my pants 90 percent of the time, but God meets me in my deficiencies thank heavens:)

daisy said...

Sending healing your way...

Just think how much time and energy we could save if we just remembered it will all work out because there is no other choice!
Continued blessings...

Barbara said...

How sweet they are, still in love after all these years and your father looks like my chiropractor Dr. C.

Between You and Me said...

beautiful shots of your precious parents...40 years....what a testimony to staying power and God's goodness.

My parents are coming up on 47 years. forty.seven.years. amazing. they've literally been together since my mom was 15 and married when she was 19....by God's grace!!!

Gypsy Heart said...

It is quite an accomplishment these days to be married 40 years. I'm so very happy for them! And you too... The photos are wonderful!

xo
Pat