Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Take Heart....

I felt wide awake, early this morning, which is unusual for me.  A dense fog had wrapped itself around my neighborhood... and my heart.  I felt fearful but was unable to put my finger on the exact reason, as there were plenty of things pressing in.  The car has been making a funny noise.  My man was going to be out of town with coworkers for the day, and I had made plans a month ago to meet a friend about an hour and a half away, which I'd normally NEVER do if my husband wasn't planning to be home for the kids when they got home.  I'm always planning a back-up.  I worried about some construction detours that seem to be ongoing, as I get lost easily.  I worried about making it back in time, before kiddos got home from school.  I worried about having an unexpected car issue on the side of a freeway with my man unavailable to come rescue me.  I felt generally fearful.  

I opened up my devo and it talked about "when bad things happen" and the "storms of life" and to be honest... it freaked me out even more.  Because obviously that was a warning for the day to come, right?  I kid... but truthfully, I tend to take things and run with them.  It's not healthy but I do it nonetheless.
 After a few gulping breaths of air and some frantic prayers of "What is wrong with me today, Lord?"  I was reminded of something deep in the corners of my heart, where it really matters;  God's word is never meant to instill fear.  He promises that He didn't give us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love and self-control.  (2 Tim 1:7)  I claimed it.  Over and over as I dried my hair, I kept repeating that verse in His name, claiming His power over the fear that something bad was going to happen.   

And then Ava woke up with a nasty head cold and raging fever and I knew.  It was what I needed this day.  To be stranded, plans crumbled, loving on my girl.  Bad things... they do happen.  But we can't let fear of the unknown rule our lives because GOD wins in the end.  When you're in the whirlwind and the what if's are swimming through your thoughts, that's the time to claim His peace and His promises over those fears.
When I called my friend to cancel, she shared that she had been feeling very overwhelmed with a few unexpected things on her end, and that this change of plans was probably a total God thing.  He just knew.  He knew we adore one another and really wanted to spend time together... but that we both needed to take care of the pieces of life happening all around us today.   I've gotten un-buried from a few overwhelming things of my own making and it's been mostly good, minus sick little one.  I've had to remind my heart over and over throughout the day that God didn't give me a spirit of fear because it's tried creeping back in again and again. 

Claiming His promises this day, and every other... "I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33) (emphasis mine)

Come what may... God's in charge of it all.  Amen.


  1. Precious Sasha~

    What Hope to lean into. Our best friend - He knows our hearts and leads us gently along.
    I just love it when He answers my prayers (sometimes unknown and unspoken) so that I can know exactly how to move forward. He is so tender like that.

    You come to my mind often friend, and I pray the Lord's favor and glory to be rich in your life.

    Love you.

  2. Hi Sasha! This post was wonderful and so comforting! I too rely on 2 Timothy 1:7 so many times! I can totally relate to your story...and the uneasy feelings we mama's sometimes experience. Like you, I'm so thankful for the Lord and His Word to bring peace and hope! God Bless you and your sweet family! Hope your daughter feels better soon! (Gorgeous photos by the way!!)
    ~Ruthie ~ Sugar Pie Farmhouse

  3. Oh I love this post! I have had days like that and then Jesus Calling is talking about bad things being inevitable. You have reminded me of the proper perspective for those days. I drooled alll over that barn photo. I would like to move into it!!

  4. Oh how I hate those fearful, anxious thoughts!! What a precious reminder of His promises!! I pray that sweet Ava is feeling better soon xoxox

  5. I had a day similar to this yesterday. I called into school because I was sick. And then I got a call that my husband was in a motorcycle accident. Normally I would be at work and not home with my girls, but everything worked out. His mom went to the hospital with him and I stayed with the girls. Everyone is luckily on the mend today!

  6. It's as if the Lord was preparing you to stay home with Ava.
    You woke up uneasy about the day's plans.

    He does that for me, too.
    We can always count on him to direct our steps.

    I'm pressing into Jesus this week...Andy is out of town Monday-Wednesday. We're hosting small group at our house Wednesday night. And, we leave first thing Thursday morning to set up our booth for the fair this weekend.
    I'm claiming HIS peace and joy this week....praying for an extra measure of GRACE to get the things done that I need to get done...and let go of what isn't important.

    love to you, friend.

  7. Yes, HE has overcome the world and aren't we glad??? What a beautiful post about our God that always directs every aspect of our lives. Blessings abundant to you!

  8. Great post, Hope your girl is feeling better

  9. Things always happen for a reason don't they! Hope Ava feels better soon. :)

  10. Amen! Hope you little one feels better soon.

  11. I, too, have had days filled with the very same feelings you experienced. You expressed yourself and your experience beautifully! Thank you for sharing with us. Your words were just what I needed to hear today.

    Hoping your baby girl feels better soon!

  12. Wonderful post and wonderful reminder. Who better to lead our days then the sovereign Lord of all Creation and yet we too often want to put that burden on ourselves. Enjoy this day of loving on your young lady and hope she feels better soon!

  13. Good that you hear him, hope your little gets better soon. Got my tags love them! & finally put up a new post yikes.

  14. What a beautiful post Tasha! One I needed to hear today. That fear thing can be a real nuisance and its only through putting my thoughts back with the Lord that I can escape it's strong hold.. Although it sounds like your uneasiness was directly related to how God was getting you ready to stay home and take care of your little one. I hope she is feeling better. You are such a wonderful mommy!

    ♥Lee Ann

  15. I really needed to hear this one! Thank you so much!

  16. Ah, I can relate.... and that verse IS a powerful reminder.. when the enemy attacks (and he does it so slyly sometimes, just whispering those little niggling doubts in our ear because he knows exactly which buttons to push, and when) it has become my mantra to remind myself that because of Jesus, we fight FROM victory, not FOR victory. We stand victorious. it's amazing!! (recommended reading: The Invisible War by Chip Ingram-- doing it in my small group right now-- powerful stuff!!)

  17. Sasha, LOVE this!! I am so glad both of us listened to God that morning. He showed me later that day another reason WHY He had our plans change! I was reminded of Jer 29:11-13 & how His plans are for our welfare not for calamity. I look forward to God's timing & plan for our rescheduled date because it will be awesome :). bryn

  18. I just 'found' your blog and I love what I see! Thank you for these words. I share your faith and my heart often wants to fear. But He has it all in control and I just need to listen to His still, small voice. He puts plans in place (even thought we think we are making the plans!) and He rearranges our plans. For our best! I'll be back again often to read your words and enjoy your beautiful photos.