I felt generally fearful.
I opened up my devo and it talked about "when bad things happen" and the "storms of life" and to be honest... it freaked me out even more. Because obviously that was a warning for the day to come, right? I kid... but truthfully, I tend to take things and run with them. It's not healthy but I do it nonetheless.
And then Ava woke up with a nasty head cold and raging fever and I knew. It was what I needed this day. To be stranded, plans crumbled, loving on my girl. Bad things... they do happen. But we can't let fear of the unknown rule our lives because GOD wins in the end. When you're in the whirlwind and the what if's are swimming through your thoughts, that's the time to claim His peace and His promises over those fears.
He just knew. He knew we adore one another and really wanted to spend time together... but that we both needed to take care of the pieces of life happening all around us today. I've gotten un-buried from a few overwhelming things of my own making and it's been mostly good, minus sick little one. I've had to remind my heart over and over throughout the day that God didn't give me a spirit of fear because it's tried creeping back in again and again.
Claiming His promises this day, and every other... "I
have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth
you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have
overcome the world.” (John 16:33) (emphasis mine)
Come what may... God's in charge of it all. Amen.