Do you remember that time (the other day) when I said I was going to commit myself to a 30 day photography challenge? And do you remember that time when I said I was also going to edit all of those same 30 photos in photoshop? And then do you remember when I said I was basically cheating on the challenge because I was so busy producing Christmas garlands that I couldn't find time to sweep my floors and what on earth was I thinking committing to something like a 30 day challenge right in the middle of the busiest time of my work year? (Okay I might not have said all of that last part.)
The point is... I let myself off the hook.
I didn't want to quit. But here's the thing. Sometimes you have to know when you're in over your
head. Sometimes you have to have the courage to stop in the midst of
the chaos that you created and prioritize. You have to find the peace,
right where it is, and grab it with both hands, even if it means putting
the camera down, ignoring the dirty floors and watching Little House on
I've been taking this amazing class on
Thursday nights with my man, at our church. It's all about why
Christians stay stuck. Last Thursday night, the instructor had us take a
position where we felt the most comfortable (I resisted laying on the
floor) and focus on breathing in and out. She had us really pay
attention to our lungs, and the chair we were sitting in, etc, and really be
present in that very moment. She quietly walked us through our day by
asking us to think through it and remember what things had been good,
bad, funny, troubling, stressful, etc. I know it sounds crazy but
something about just getting truly quiet and breathing and mentally
going through my day piece by piece actually put me in a place of
relaxed peace. I loved it. It made me so aware of how many days I
rush here and there, the radio on, the to-do list piling up and I forget
to BE in the moment. Present. No matter if things aren't going
according to plan. If the lady behind me at the Post office says
something mean. Or if the server at the printers goes down. It reminds me to live in that moment when my BFF
texts me back and forth for a half hour, about bumping into an old girlfriend of Adrain's, causing me to laugh and laugh and savor the fun moments like a delicious treat. It reminds me to say yes to the
sweet blue eyes begging me to go for a walk after school. And REST.
I'm a work in progress, that's for sure. And in favor of being real with myself, being present in all the moments- good or bad so that I can be a blessing to others... I am not going to force myself to finish a photo challenge right now. Do you ever do this?
Do you have anything weighing you down that you simply need to give yourself permission to eliminate from your list? It feels so good!
So yeah. I quit my challenge. But I'm good with that. I plan to BE and REST a little more. How about you?
And He said to them,
"Come away by yourselves to a lonely place and rest a while." For there
were many people coming and going, and they did not even have time to