Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Unstuck.

I'm sitting here at my desk, watching torrents of rain pound the street outside my window.  I haven't been blogging with the kind of regularity that I typically push myself to do for that creative and emotional outlet that I love.  I think it's because I'm in a really unique place right now and I don't feel the need for a ton of wordy processing.

I'm sitting in a puddle of peace if you want to know the truth, and I can't for the life of me begin to tell you how I got to this place.  There was a slow and steady letting go, of each of my fingers, wrapped so tightly around my hopes and dreams and prayers for my man.  A relinquishing of something so complex that I wasn't even able to put in fully into words.

Do you remember the class I mentioned a post or two ago... the one my man asked me to join him in?  Guess what it's titled?  "Why Christians stay stuck."  (I've also seen the answer to that very question flitting around Pinterest, put this way, "What screws us up most in life, is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be."  You know what I'm talking about, right?)

I wrote this post a month ago and ever since that point, God has been doing something healing and tender in my heart.  I'm not a naturally bitter person but watching friend after friend receive direction in life for the past nearly five years has been... hard.  Of course I want what is best for each and every person traveling the road of questions alongside us... but it has been awfully hard to continue walking a road we began, with constant destination changes, while at the same time saying good bye to the many friends finally getting green lights on their similar paths.  Does that make sense?  I have had to constantly focus on my own story.  I wish I never struggled with that one.  Somewhere amidst those thoughts, I felt like I had been given rest.  I want to write posts like this because when I look back, I am certain it will encourage me to see that even without resolutions or direction or definitive answers, I had moments.  Moments with quiet pools and lush meadows for rest and breath catching.  More than that, God has been pursuing me over the past few weeks, whispering words of love into my ear and being a tender father.  I read the 23rd Psalm in the Message and it wrecked me in a good way.   I will continue taking this class along side my man about getting unstuck, because you never know what's around the bend of your own heart.  However, I am thankful for the place I am resting in right this minute while I wait. 

Psalm 23
  God, my shepherd!
    I don’t need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
    you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
    you let me catch my breath
    and send me in the right direction.
Even when the way goes through
    Death Valley,
I’m not afraid
    when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd’s crook
    makes me feel secure.
 You serve me a six-course dinner
    right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
    my cup brims with blessing.
 Your beauty and love chase after me
    every day of my life.
I’m back home in the house of God
    for the rest of my life.


And on a totally different subject... I just added the sweetest little watercolor Christmas print to my shop.  It's my very newest favorite and I hope you LOVE it too!  It can be purchased in 8x10" or 11x14" sizes, available here. (Wall color is "Stormy Sky" by Benjamin Moore.)

Happy Tuesday, my friends!
 


17 comments:

  1. So thankful for your Puddle of Peace. Please pray that I might find that same puddle. My puddle is getting muddier and muddier and more and more difficult to even walk through.

    Blessings to you, Sweet Friend!

    Laurel :)

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  2. I totally get what you're saying. It is hard to wait and watch others receive direction. Someone spoke at our church years ago about waiting, and although I don't remember exactly what was said, I do remember him talking about how we perceive the waiting to be a standing still, but that God can and does soooo much in that waiting period that it can ne an exciting time.

    I probably didn't do much justice to the topic but hopefully you get the jist!! I can see how God has been loving amd grooming you over the years amd all of the waiting will not be wasted!!

    The print is adorable!! I love the photo shoot area with the pillow and chair!! You are wonderfully and creatively made!!

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  3. I heard it was stormy out your way, and glad you are sitting in the very best kind of puddle! Big hugs! ~Sally

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  4. So happy for you!! Enjoy every minute!

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  5. Sasha,
    Girl, I hear you, it's hard watching others prayers being answered while God asks us to wait. I keep reminding myself His timing is perfect even when the waiting seems to have no end. I am convinced of this, that God moves suddenly and on a very ordinary day so we are left wow'd by His perfection. Keep on expecting...
    Love and Hugs and Prayers!
    Shelby

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  6. I can't wait to receive my print! Ava loves it too! I totally understand what you mean by being stuck. While it may be the most difficult of places to be, sometimes it is where God wants us even though we don't want it! I have been thinking of you a lot lately and was hoping you would share with us your daily thoughts or a quote on what you are studying in the Bible. It really helps me in my hectic day as I try to teach full time and take care of my own two little girls! Oh and on a less serious note, I chose an Essie color yesterday without realizing what it was: Smokin Hot! I am about to try it tonight. I can't wait! XO

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  7. A puddle of peace, now I love that and it's what we all need! It is so hard to sit back and watch life seemingly come together for those around us, while we're still afloat on the sea of life. Hang in there, getting unstuck is a great way to put it. Blessings!

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  8. what is this peace you speak of and tell me how to get there...please. thank you. happy for you though. you need some peace.

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  9. I just had this EXACT conversation with my Mom and sister....I have a tendency to think and plan and "come up with a picture of what I think life should look like" and then when it doesn't end up that way, I am left REELING for a looong minute. And then God comes through and reminds me WHERE I need to be. I go there, into His presence. And it gets better...But, that process can definitely take far too long!

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  10. Continued peace to you and yours.
    That watercolor is adorable! What great Christmas cards they would make!

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  11. Thank you for sharing...think I'll find a comfy spot and do the same thing, rest. Love the watercolor, wish I had some extra funds to buy some of your pretty things. Blessings!

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  12. I'm sure you've heard the old adage..."Make plans...and God laughs". So true! We just need to let go and let God. He has the Master Plan and He is in control. We don't have control of anything except our attitudes and thoughts. I am so happy that you've found some peace. It's such a blessing for us when we do! Believe me, I have to remind myself a LOT that I am NOT in control. :)

    LOVE the reindeer! Would love to purchase more items from your shop. Did you just paint this wall or have I just not seen it? Love the color!

    xo
    Pat

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  13. I've been in a non-writing mood for a long while now.
    wonder if it'll ever hit me again...to feel the need to process my heart with mostly strangers?

    thankful for this peace that he has given you.
    letting go and surrendering that will that our hearts grip sometimes is so incredibly hard.
    thankful he has allowed you the courage to trust him as you loosen the grip on control.

    i'm doing my own fair sharing of letting go in other areas....
    love you sweet friend.

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  14. PLEASE write a book!!! I believe it would be a best seller. Call it Lemonade Makin' Mama. I need that book. A "puddle of peace" just melts my ♥. My sister and I were just having this exact conversation a few days ago and wondered why we felt "stuck" and if maybe it was just how you felt when you got older...I am going to direct her to your blog and we are getting on our knees. :)

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  15. I have my moments of a "puddle of peace" and then I start to think, and worry and wonder why things aren't happening for me. It so hard to constantly remind myself all things in his time but I'm working on it. It seems like it's a never ending process and I'm sure that is the case. I do realize though that while I'm waiting he's working on things, working on me. We just have to keep faith. Thanks for the reminder to keep faith while staying in GOD.

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