I've watched the passing of the last few years with relief and hopeful expectation mixed with fears that all the things we had been praying for would never change or get better....until this year. This New Year's was different. For the first time in years, I didn't feel that hopeless sadness over a passing year of unmet expectations and fear over more of the same wash over me. Something different was in the air this year- HOPE. All the things Adrain and I have anxiously chewed our lower lip over these past few years are still "current" YET God has shown Himself faithful in so many details that it blows my mind and plants my feet in the camp of trusting Him with the big things. If I could shout out the details for you I would do it, and it might even make tears spring to your eyes to see how His finger had directed us and provided for us in the shadows of the past few years of valley-living.
What I can tell you, is that you really can praise HIM and thank Him while heartbreaking circumstances stay unchanging. While relationships hang by threads you can praise Him for His plan. While questions and heartache pillow your head at night you can thank Him for that place. You can raise your arms in trust and cry out HIS wonders while you stand on a heap of financial loss and unknowns. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills and nothing is impossible for GOD! This past year we've watched hope resurface in our hearts- places we'd long since abandoned. We've watched a financial rescue begin. We've seen answers to questions from the past and we've seen that in the glorious and heartbreaking messy moments of life and relationship, God has a VERY GOOD plan.
I don't have any resolutions for 2014. I don't have much of anything but this one thing a person can not live long without- HOPE. Hope because He didn't give me a spirit of fear, but one of power, love and self-discipline and I'm claiming it for my household. Hope because He hasn't given up on me yet. Hope that though this life will bring trouble...and unexpected loss, heartbreak and things that smack us from the sidelines... He has overcome the world and His plan for us is a good one and He delights to answer our prayers and bring us through it, to the other side.
my favorites from the wedding we just hosted in our home last weekend. I only took 400 photos. I thought I would probably take a thousand but I didn't. Still... that's a heap to sort through.
Are you with me?