Friday, October 31, 2014

Oh just lots of things.

I always love how a few of my friends do get togethers.  We might not see each other for months but then we bump into one another or meet for coffee and we talk about everything from one end of the gamut to the other.  We laugh, share our hearts, catch up, talk about kids, hubbies, marriage, life, God and then we might even shed a tear or two.  I always leave those times feeling full.  Do you know what I mean?  I'm sitting here today with a whole range of thoughts in my head and undoubtedly, if we were meeting up in real life, it would be one of those visits. Thought I'd take just a second and jot a few biggies down to chat about with you. 

I've been so mad lately, and I've been having angry dreams which is totally unlike me and very odd.  I told my kids that they could invite a "friend or two" to trick or treat with... and my son invited at least a dozen kids.  He hasn't ever been one of those boys that got play date invites or many birthday party invitations, and hasn't got a best buddy. Never has. I watched him call and invite friends and of course they all had plans.  It made me mad to watch him shake off rejection and the fact that that is his story, so I'm doing my best to get over it while I pray frantically that at least one boy shows up.  My angry dreams were of me, doing things like yelling at a house full of kids to eat oatmeal for breakfast but they couldn't hear me for some reason, and one or two kept wandering off every time I tried to get them to all sit at the table!  I had another weird one about walking in to the house filled with kids, and every single room had been taken apart and was a huge mess, and nobody could hear my voice even though I was yelling as loudly as I could.  I think I need a vacation!  Does that ever happen to you?  Of course I take all my dreams apart and analyze them with Adrain.  Somehow it helps.  I believe dreams aren't always random.  Ya know? Apparently I'm freaking out about not being heard in this house (true) and breakfast has been an issue lately (also true), and the thought of having more than two kids in my house is stressing me out. (Again, truth here, as I've always got children that don't belong to me in this house after school.  They just start knocking on the door and lounging on the sofa and eating all the food and even though I know this was part of the ministry God had intended for us several years ago when we felt like He was reshaping how we did life... I think I'm overwhelmed! Maybe just a tad...)

However that brings me to this.  The other day I was reading something about something BIG someone else was doing (Oh I know.. you don't have to tell me not to compare) and I started to feel kind of like a failure in the "Do big things for God" department.  I mean four some odd years ago we thought for sure we would be able to downsize our house (mortgage payment), lifestyle, go on lots of missions trips, etc, etc, etc.  Of course nothing went down like we thought and we were downsized alright, just not voluntarily... yet big things are happening again around here and even the yucky things have been like blazing arrows pointing us down a lighted path that it feels like God is clearing the way for us to walk on.  It might be months until I have details for you.  I look back and can see exactly how God led us through a sort of dessert place to get us to a place flowing with proverbial milk and honey, and all the mission we could possibly want (or handle, truthfully) just in a totally different capacity than we ever imagined.  I can't share details of any of that either but I do know this- Adrain and I have been given a mission as a couple that only he and I could have done and you'll have to take our word for that one.  It was for us and only us.  If all the things we'd thought and prayed to happen had come to pass we would have completely missed out on this thing in our hands today.  And isn't that the glorious, beautiful, messy, heartbreaking way of it sometimes? It might not be moving mountains but it's loving on some individual hearts that are very precious to God and we get to be His hands and feet directly!  Life changing, all around. 

Okay truthfully, I'd love to sit here and chat about a ton of frivolous things but kids are walking in the door in a moment and I've got to hurry.  However before I go here is a whirlwind of by the front door before you head out topics- 1) I have an addiction to latte art youtube videos.  They are crazy awesome.  2) I made a huge neck warmer and I have gotten about two dozen compliments and I'm telling you it stopped traffic at Costco the other day, making my man just roll his eyes and laugh.  I used huge needles and size 6 yarn and it is my very favorite thing- like ever. 3) I rearranged the studio/office/guest room and I hate it but it's got to be this way.  I really will have to share...  4) One of my besties, Alli has been making me almost pee my pants for the past two days over Halloween emails and if you could read what the two of us say to one another you would die laughing too.  She is a bad influence in the best of ways. KnowwhatImean? 5) I have a VERY COOL diy to share on Monday- it's a Pottery Barn knock off advent calendar and I'm getting tingles just looking at how awesomely it's coming together (see above photo).  6) I'll also be having a Younique party on Monday via the virtual world and I'll share more about that as well as a couple new vintage ornament prints that I'm very excited about!  Gonna be a fun week next week! 

Happy Halloween Peeps!
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19 comments:

  1. Dear Sasha, We would like to see the huge neck warmer. Please and Thank you. Your friend (and speaking for all of your readers), Sally *wink wink xo

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    1. Oooh yes, I would love to see pics too!! :)

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    2. AIright you... just posted it today!! :)
      S

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  2. okay..we'll see if this works. usually when i try and comment on your blog it doesn't let me =(
    OH MY GOSH! i'm WITH you on the angry dreams. i have felt really bad, weird, sad, odd, WRONG about my extreme anger in my dreams. i don't know where i am on it now...however, i'm SO relieved to hear/read that another person on the planet (another Christian, mommy who loves her husband) has had them too. okay. whew. i psychoanalyze myself to death. pretty sure, like you, it stems from pent up THINGS you want to say or having 'no voice.' i'm with ya sister! i hope to figure it all out some day. Lord, help us. =)

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  3. I'm sorry you're having these dreams ~ definitely disturbing. Perhaps your not being heard is the root of them. I realize this is not my business but try to relax when kids come over after school. I grew up in a "sterile" house where I could not have friends over, slumber parties, anything. My mother was a fanatic about the house and always worried about what "they" might think, say or do. We never knew who "they" were! A good friend of mine's Mom was open to having kids at their house anytime and I LOVED it there! One thing I always remembered was that there were always dirty dishes in the sink. :) We could make fudge or popcorn and it was ok. Somehow, those dishes always got cleaned. Things like that could never happen at my home.

    We do want to see the neck warmer! I am anxious to see the new things too. Hope you can relax and dream sweeter dreams.

    xo
    Pat

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    1. That's great advice. I really don't stress about it being clean and perfect once kids are around. And I promise though it's picked up in photos it's not always like that. :) Far from sterile. My house has a fairly open door policy but there are times I just have had five children who don't belong to me in my house for days on end and I need a break. I always hope they understand. I say yes the rest of the time. :)

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  4. I am totally with you in these difficult middle school years Sasha. My daughter is left out all of the time. While I am glad when she is not invited to "parties" , she is devastated. I told her last night that, I want her to be happy and have friends. But I want her to know Jesus more. It is so hard. They don't understand. I will pray for you and your kids(: It is nice that you have a house full of them - we always do too and it stresses me out too. But I know where my daughter is(: I am getting ready to get my Christmas prints out that you made. I love seeing your work in my house. Susan

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    1. Yep. THis mama gig is hard work! Hang in there sweets.

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  5. Hi Sasha! I just found your blog and I believe God lead me there,as I was reading your About page my eyes welled up with tears as I too have been going through something that happened years ago with my husband and I havent been faithful in my devotions with God and I feel very far away and wonder if he hears my prayers still.You have encouraged me by being so transparent.Would you please email me as I sure could use a friend of the faith right now.Thank you and I LOVE your blog, Deidre

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  6. We've actually been dealing with alot of mad/angry/ ATTITUDE at our house too. Teenagers work some serious "magic"! :) Your son is awesome andso is his Mom. In times like these my mantra just keeps playing on repeat in my head - "God is faithful! He is so faithful!"

    I can't wait to see your guest room and theadvent thing you're working on. I need to get mine going! I haven't planned anything yet. What ink pads do you use for stamping and where do you get them? How do you clean a stamp when you're done with it? I haven't used stamps since I was a kid, but I just bought one andhave decided to pull some of the old ones out!

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    1. Hmm... chalky kinds at Joanns or Michaels? I'm not a stamper or any of that so I just grab what's on sale. Ha!

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  7. Prayed for your son, and for God to send him a true, good friend. It is so hard to be the Mom and try and protect their precious hearts. Ugh!

    Are you going to do the Names of God garland again? I feel like maybe you said you were retiring from them, but I love mine so and would desperately love another:-)

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    1. Thank YOU!!! That means so much. He actually DID make a really lovely friend on Friday night and I was so pleased. Prayers were heard!

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    2. I just couldn't do the garlands this year. I considered hiring someone but it just got pushed out of the way with all the other stuff on my plate. I'm hoping to make some next year. I just don't have enough time... so sad!

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    3. I am beyond thrilled that he had two friends join him! Yay for answered prayers:-) And there is seriously no relief for a Momma's heart than an answer like this one. Truly. I completely understand about the garlands; I thought you weren't doing them, but just in case I had to ask. I absolutely treasure the one I have, it is on the tree in my kitchen that is a Jesse tree, and it makes me so happy every time I see the Names we are celebrating.

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  8. Oh, so sorry for the bad dreams and hopefully there is nothing to them and they will leave promptly. Sure understand your feelings about your son and friends. A Mother's heart is so, so tender when it comes to her children and especially in this area. Yes, we would love to see this "to die for" neck warmer. Excited to hear what the Lord has in store for you and your husband. Blessings abundant this month of November!

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    1. Love you so much Lea. You always encourage me!! thank you.

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