(The meeting went well- but there is no way to escape the raw emotional turmoil after those meetings and the way you tend to feel as a mom looking at/fearing the future and such. I can't go into it much, as I don't know who reads this anymore that might be connected to my kids, but those kinds of meetings are always hard and painful on the heart, and that, I can tell you. After the meeting, I was trying not to fall apart and cry all over the place, and thinking I might actually succeed, when a neighbor I'd never met, stopped in to tell me about a situation that had happened with this child a few weeks before. Though she was very kind, the timing could seriously not have been worse for my poor mama's heart. All of the raw edges I'd been barely hanging onto crashed in on me at once and I sobbed for a couple of hours and I couldn't make myself stop. I couldn't figure out why of all days, a few weeks after the incident, yesterday was the day that had been destined for me to be "enlightened" about my child's poor choice. But when Adrain came home and prayed with me, thanking God for the events of the day- even the hard ones, I was reminded that someday I will be able to be the ultimate empathizer to some young mama dealing with kids on the spectrum or special needs and all that entails, and maybe I can share yesterday with her and tell her that at the end of the day, with God's help, I survived. (And she will too.) Praise the Lord. Motherhood is so hard sometimes isn't it? Well that's all I'll say about that now. Thank you so much for being there for me- so many of you on Instagram reached out with virtual hugs in that moment where I was sobbing and falling apart like a crazy woman, and loved on me.)
So moving onward and upward. People frequently ask me what I do with our decor as it's always changing. For the most part, I keep rotating many of the same things around in various rooms and uses, and I've got a large tub that I store in the garage with decor items not in use such as picture frames, prints, seashells, votives, sand, moss, and other random decor items. I do tend to donate or consign anything I have not used in the space of two seasons so it can bless another person. (If I am hanging onto it in a closet or something and not using it at all, it's not blessing me or anyone else.) I also have a huge tub with white candles of every size, and I have a linen closet between my kiddos rooms where I store trays and baskets, extra bedding, cloth napkins, guest room essentials and random things with no home that I keep for decor tweaking. If I know I want to do some nest fluffing, I tend to pull the tub inside and lay things out, walking from room to room, changing items here and there, often several times, until I've got things the way I want them. No surface is off limits and I love spending an afternoon moving things like this. It feels very homey to move this candle here, or that plant over there, etc.
As for photos that get changed often, I simply use a dab of spackle on the end of my finger, and push it into the tiny hole left behind and then I use an artist brush and touch up the paint as needed. It keeps the walls looking nice and I don't feel guilty about moving things around on a whim!
Okay friends, that's it. Just a few tweaks here and there! Are you tweaking your decor much for Summer?